What's Left?.........., Who,why,when,and how am i gonna survive Options

[rAwritsgWeg]

man i dont know what to do anymore im in a foster home type place and i dont know what im gonna do
last nite a kid who lived in the place with me kept tryin to touch me he has been doing that for a long time too.
i had almost snapped in a car while one of the staff was tryin to cool me down
i then was asked by the same staff to just go outside and get it all out
my anger, hate, despair all of it everything negative
i had begun to shake and had nocontrol soon there after
i got lightheaded and collapsed to the ground today problems persisted and i just dont know what im gonna do anymore
i wanna hurt the kid i wanna hurt othre i wanna hurt my self and im getting so close to do all of that
the thing is if i do that then im going to be f**ked over a whole lot(srry for profanity)
i need to leave this place i cant take it anymore
im about to snap and i dont know what i am going to do
do i just end it now or do try to continue on
i find out that i get to go home today and ill be happy
if not i dont know what im gonna do
whatever the outcome is its prolly not gonna be good

plz people i need help normally when i talk to people it gets me calm so plz give advice
(yes this very true and is happening at this very moment)

[*Blow_Don't_SUCK*]

^Talk to a guidance counselor in school. Report it to someone who you know can really help you. You have to. You'll keep getting hurt if you keep this a secret.