Some Kind of Apology, I don't really know Options

[EriaNight]

Honestly, I know for a fact that a lot of people on staff are...pretty much hating my guts right now. Either that or they are: really confused or REALLY extremely MAD that i even brought up the topic in the first place.

Most people before I brought up the "copyright infrindgement" topic did not even care about me as a person or actually thought I was really really really nice. Now everyone on staff knows my currently i suppose "infamous" name and not who I really who I am as a person. Since no one even knows anymore....I thought I'd write this just to try to settle some things.

I'm not a mean person normally, nor do I WANT ever to get people mad. I didn't want to bring up the topic at first because I Knew i was just going to get yelled at. I also knew that it would put people into bad moods which...you know are pretty negative aspects of life. However I still brought it up. You probably are wondering why... I don't want to see CB disappear, nor will that ever happen, I rather wanted to make sure it DIDN'T happen. I wanted to point out something that could easily be fixed so that CB could help promote the wellbeing of artists. I'm sorry if I offended CB, its members, and staff. Which I know I did.

I'm not going to lie, I said some pretty mean things in that thread, but you have to admit I wasn't the only one pointing fingers. Staff did too. So I'll say I'm sorry for the horrid comments (no sarcasm or wit) I made and take them back. Í still don't agree and even though I know most of staff thinks I'm pretty much a big hypocrite, I'm am rather inclined to tell you "i really don't care" but i'd be lying. I really...generally don't like hypocrites, liars, and backstabbers. I try to stay away from them because often I debate their moral conscience. I'm not going to say "do your research and learn to read" because that's not nice and also maybe perhaps you did and are just confused. At least you tried. Trying means a lot to me right now.

Suzzette---I personally wanted to add to you that I am sorry for being rude. But I was especially offended by practically every. single. post. you made in that thread. Especially since on a certain forum i was the one who personally requested you to be on staff. It doesn't matter anymore and I'm still apologizing to you. *handshake*

I don't know if I'm leaving CB or not. I'd never make that announcement simply because half of the people that actually take the time to respond to things like that usually say "YAY!! i'm so glad you are leaving!!" and okay...that's kind of....*raised eyebrow* not supportive. I don't really have time to make blog layouts as much for CB seeing as how I'm not very good at making xanga, myspace, blog in general layouts and coding and when I do actually change the one on my site it takes me like a month to do it...plus I'm getting attached to other things and am currently diving into a huge Film project...which I bet some of you either wouldn't believe or care about anyway. SOOoooo With that I'll write some sort of conclusion to this mass of nothingness.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I made people mad, I'm sorry I said mean things, and I'm sorry many people on CB staff hate me for a really stupid reason. I don't HATE you. I did cry for 3 hours at things people said in the thread (which is actually really stupid considering I was crying at something said on the INTERNET) while i tried to defend myself with any logic I could think of. So I'll sit here listening to my inspirational music ("Now we are free" from Gladiator's soundtrack if you want to know hahah) and just finally close this really stupid hatred fight where no one really admitted anything and everyone (EVERYONE) lost.

Have a good night (if it is nighttime where you are)
And remember forever to be consciously aware
Of what really matters. Happiness and Honesty.

Sincerely,
Molly.

[*Libertie*]

I never said I hated you. In fact, I never argued with you in the first place. I shouldn't have posted in there, I obviously don't know much about that particular issue anyway, but I really did read the entire thread. I posted because some of the things that were said hit pretty hard. But then I'm one of the people who complains that people are too sensitive; it isn't right of me to go off being too sensitive myself, is it?

I honestly wouldn't worry too much about it, people get upset all the time, and usually it all just blows over. Don't do something drastic like disappear on us before we get a chance to actually know you.