loving a girl, just brokeup with my gf to wait... Options

[co0nster421]

hey im new to this forum. anyways i broke it off with my gf a few weeks ago n im jus feeling messed up. well to start off she's 16, and i jus turned 20. i really love her but i feel like the age difference is to0 much. i see her friends look at me and i know what they're thinking: "he's 20, all he wants is sex" anyway i've known her for a long time now and it's hard to deny that urge to... ya kno. so i broke it off before we ever had the chance to... i never wanted things to end this way. she has a bright future and i dont want to mess things up for her. guys can be total @$$holes when they get all pervy. made me realize that love and sex are two different things. she's going through alot at that age and i jus dont think im go0d enough for her. u shouldnt be in love at 16. u should still be having fun and enjoying that hs life. i still wana be a part of her life but im not sure how to talk to her without making her feel... well i need advice

[co0nster421]

thx people. that helped a bit. here's a twist to the story tho... i could be really sick in a few years. could die and im not sure if i want to get tested for this gene.

~life is what you make of it... it's not predeterminded by a piece of paper

so i broke it off with her because i kno she'll be happier with someone else. it's jus my personally i guess... when u think that u're dying, u tend to be depressed a lot... ::sigh:: life is complicated... dunno how to explain things now... just lost