Help, I dunno what to do.. Options

[iiTsDAYNA]

3 major IMPORTANT fact: Im shy...very shy...I havent dated...I havent kissed

Ok so theres this guy right.. He is so sweet and I feel like such a BUTHOLE for what I did. Ok so I moved down here(as in mississippi) in august. This guy started liking me and I started liking him... I asked him to come to a pick-nick..and he said yes cuz he likes me. so.. after I invited him..I had second thoughts of whether or not I want him to go... So I started not talking to him at the pick-nick...I didnt speak to him but once.. after the pick-nick we had a water fight. hehe. (man does he have a niiice stumoch..) anyways... when school came around he started avoiding me and not talking to me...and called me STUCKUP and im not in anyway stuck up I understand because I felt like such an a$$.. We didnt talk to him and he didnt talk to me because he went out and got another girl... I got mad..he was still mad because I didnt talk to him at the pic-nic.. and then we started talking again.....Everything was cool we talked to eachother on the phone for hours. And I started talking to him at school and everything and then the past few weeks I started not talking to him and I dont want to make him feel like I hate him because I dont. I dont! On new years I felt like calling him..but my cousins talked me outta it... and I feel like calling him now and explaining to him that I dont in anyway hate him or dont like him because I really do. ALOT on top of that. I want to go out with him and I dunno if he still feels the same.. so I dunno... what should I do...

O and also...

My mom doesnt want me to date him because in her words hes a "BAD BOY" because he smokes... so what. So does my dad. And so does she.
Everyones telling me to forget abotu him...Dont worry you can do better than that...but no other boys have even gave me a clue that they liked me. so...

I dunno what I should do..

HELP!!!!

[dahding]

1. he smokes. that's not good. and many freaking people care. u should too.
2. u were an ass as u stated. that's ur problem. face the consequences.
3. sounds more like just eye candy for you. u don't sound serious at all.
4. if u really liked the boy, why would u let ur cousins talk u out of it. don't let others influence ur love life.
5. he's got a girl. deal with that too.

and i believe it is picnic. not picknick.

it's obvious as to why he may have lost interest. u invite him to something, and basically ignore him for no apparent reason. i'd be pretty pissed off at u too. if u want to patch things up, explain why u ditched him like that. but if u cause him to break up with his gf/if there is one, then that just makes u a crappy person, for lack of better words.

just move on and find someone else. u already botched this one up nicely.