"Life Changing Experience", what changed you? Options

[De112]

Aight, So I know we all have had a "Life Changing Experience". I know I have. I've had plenty...But most of the experiences, no one ever tells. No one tells because alot of times it's not always good. This sorta goes back to Brandon's thread, get to know cb, but this goes into it, more depth to this one topic...

I'll start off..

To be honest, I think my dad leaving my Mom and I was the Life Changing Experience that was supposed to happen for a reason. It changes alot of ways I look at life. If my dad had never left my mom, I would have never seen the heart break my mom went through, and it showed me exactly what NOT to be.
Also, my step dad...he had problems with drugs. He would come home late at night, and start fights with my mom. I was 12...13 years old...What was I to do? This happen for a while. Around the time I got 15, I punched him. Broke his nose.
Things were never right after that. So my mom left him. Now it's just me and my mom...But both of these situations have given me alot...shows what NOT to be to a woman...

and it also shows that I have a bad temper from holding all this in =]

Now You.

[ecargnmyst]

hey its a very good thing your not gonna be like your dad..props for that...and also very good how u stand up for ur mom...u must love her very much

as for me....i reeeally do wanna love my mom b/c i feel so srry for her...but my hate for her kinda prohibits that..

ook so.. my dads been cheating on my mom for the past 17 yrs (i just turned 17...sbeen happening when my mom was pregnant with me) he has a 15/16 yr old son with that woman...hes been physically and mentally abusing my mom...more mental abuse tho..sooo..well hes done alloottt of other stuff...still hazy on a bunch..but from what i overheard in the arguements...he had a girlfriend who he got pregnant ..took her money and ran off...then he had another wife who he did the same thing to...and now my mom his 3rd "victim" cept my mom wouldnt let him run off w/ her money..so here they still are..unhappily..

so of course...him being such an a-hole...not providing for us..never being home...cheating...all that stuff drove my mom crazy..so right now im living with a mom whos been blinded by hatred and paranoia....her actions r unreasonable and she takes out her pain on me..that is why im unable to love her altho i feel very srry for her...but she is so close to killing me..and has..on several occasions almost killed me...choking me..smothering me...trying to stab me w/ scissors/pencils ..id go further into detail but i dont want to depress anyone here..lol..i wrote about it in my college essay and my english teacher thought i needed counseling =\ b/c my writing was so darkk ><

but this has been a life changing experience..well not life changing b/c i was born INTO it..but it certainly has affected the way ive grown up..and altho there were time ive thought of dying (even tho amazingly i dont do drugs or cut myself or anything =]....and amazingly i look/act like a happy perky girl O.o) i have to really appreciate and thank everything that happened to me..to make who i am today..b/c all the dark emotions inside of me only motivated me to write more and express myself in more creative ways..and im very thankful for that

i grew to hate the person who was tearing my parents apart.

=\ my moms always yelling at me for not standing up for her and not hating that other woman ... but how can i stand up for her and fight for her...if shes treated me so badly? even tho its not really her fault..but i grew up seeing her as more of an enemy...and how can i hate that other woman if there was no happy family in the first place to miss? iono..i think my reasoning makes sense..no?