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 Dec 6 2005, 01:38 AM
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originally started by faithin_felix.
version1 version2 version3 version4 Most of you know the drill. Comment and/or quote someone elses entry but you must also make your own. Dear cB, So I am getting even more excited/ nervous about my possible transfer to another school. It will be a huge change if I decide to leave USF. |
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Dec 27 2005, 01:57 AM
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Dear cB Diary,
Wow. Why am I like this? I don't ever know anything. I can't even decipher my own feelings. I don't know what the hell I feel or how to act or anything anymore. I think I'm happy but then next thing you know I'm crying over something stupid. Why? I hadn't cried over him in a while and then what do you know, last week I was crying hard because of him. I'm supposed to be over him. It's been three months. Then there's him. Why aren't I into him more or why isn't he making me get over him? He's so confusing; does he like me or does he not like me? Which will it be today? Blah. I hate me. I'm so stressed out and nothing is going well no matter how strong I try to be or how much I pretend. I hate complaining but here goes. I'm disappointed that I didn't get anything really for Christmas. I know, I know that Christmas is not about presents but that's not exactly why I'm disappointed. I'm angry that we're having money problems. I'm angry that other people go out and spend as much as they want and how people tell me all the seemingly fabulous things they got while my family couldn't afford to get me anything. I'm really sick of school. I don't want to go back. I can't finish it. I want to drop out or something. Look at how badly I'm doing. How the hell am I supposed to raise all my grades in the matter of days when no one is helping me? Not one person is reaching out a hand. Even when I clearly asked for help. I can't do things like this all by myself. I'm so frustrated with boys. All of them. Why is Justin acting like this and playing games? Or at least that's the way it seems. Yeah, obviously we're flirting but is that all it is? It can't be. I'm probably reading way too into things but any normal girl would and I just don't get it. It doesn't make it easier that things with Phillip and I freaking suck. That basically every time we talk we end up fighting. And over God knows what. I miss him. I can't deny that I miss not only having a boyfriend but that I miss him. How pathetic am I? Driving past Golden and I cry. How pathetic am I that while singing a song I start to bawl? How pathetic am I that while watching Friends I cry over him? I'm freaking sick of it. It didn't help that today was supposed to be our six months. Why am I still counting? Boys. Ugh. Friends, wow. Another subject. I'm sick of basically every single one of them except for perhaps a handful. A select handful. And while some might think they are in this select handful, they aren't. That's the sad thing. I'm getting so annoyed and sick of some of my closest friends. What is my problem? I hate when I feel like things are looking up and then I find out I'm so terribly wrong. -Me. |
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