Irresistible Impulse, poem about someone with OCD Options

[*NatiMarie*]

Irresistible Impulse
by NatiMarie

I think it may be too soon
to let this love I have for you
expand to reach the depths of the ocean’s salty waters.

I think it is starting to hurt me.
The struggle in finding ways for you
To reach your heart into mine and let it grasp it tight.

I think I’m going fanatical.
The way I repeat your name
in the exact same tone and pitch
that if I mess up I have to say your name
once more again.

I think I’m growing obsessive.
To write your name 100 times in a little
blue book the size of a post-it, in both cursive
and print, interchangeably.

I think I’ve gone too far into loving you.
To not care if you say hi to me and ignore me
that I start blaming myself of my stupidity.

I think I don’t love you.
The way I feel more hate for you when I can’t
get you to notice me.

I think I have to let my hands free of tension.
The way I grasp my hands so tight together when
I see you kissing somebody else that I start sweating
and hating you.

Maybe I should just stop thinking.
To let this craziness control my life isn’t
normal.

Maybe you’re just my obsession.
A part of me that I cannot let depart
from where I have placed you
in my soul and in my heart.


--This poem is based on someone who has OCD, sadly, in some circumstances can this disorder be controlled.

[faithin_felix]

did you write it?