the young love i lost.. Options

[wishonthestars]

When I was in 1st grade (I'm in 8th now, 14 years old) I went to this church.
My sister liked this guy named Josh Coolbaugh. I thought he was cute, but he was way too old for me (14 I think...). So my sister decided to cheer me up. She told me that he had a brother, Caleb Coolbaugh, and that he was a cutie. I met Caleb the next Sunday - and you'll probably think it's not possible, but - we fell in love. The only reason I got up every sunday morning was to see Caleb. I was soo young then, I don't remember if we were going out or what, but we both loved each other so much.

2 girls got jealous of us, and tried to break us apart. They were gorgeous, and I thought I'd never stand a chance against their beauty. But to my surprise, he stuck it out with me.

I remember one day, my cousin was talking to Caleb. They were outside, and I snuck behind a very thick pole, so they couldn't see me. My cousin said to Caleb "She takes showers once a month".
(Which was untrue, probably once a week! lol but I was younger and didn't know the meaning of bathing)
Caleb said "I don't care, I love her."

Caleb and I had a 2 year age difference, but nothing mattered. We were in love and nothing could ever stop us from being apart. We'd hug, pass notes, hold hands, meet each other secretly at church, flirt - just about everything.

But something did stop us. His family was moving to Pennsylvania. I remember the last day seeing him as if it were yesturday. I sat next to him in church, and the feelings just poured over me. Nobody noticed but I was crying. I knew this was the last time I'd EVER see him in my life. His shirt was long, so extra parts of it hung on the chair beside me. I touched the button on his shirt and cried on the inside.

After the assembly, I dried my eyes so nobody would see. Caleb and I hugged as his parents pulled him away from me. That was the end. When I got home I cried quietly in my room.

Now, 7 years later, I miss him sooo much, it's unbelievable. I've had so many troubles in my love life, and it seems as though, if Caleb were still here, I would'nt have to worry about having my heart broken. He loved me for who I was. Nothing less. For the year I was with him, every night, I'd have dreams about him...us marrying and growing old together. After he moved, I still had dreams about him. It was haunting me inside. I stopped having those dreams 4 years later. But now I want him more than ever.

When I got older, I asked my sister if she thought i'd ever find him. She told me (which broke my heart) that he never loved me and that it was all fake. But in the back of my heart I never gave up on him.

Sometimes it seems like this thing is the kind of story you'd find in fairy tales. Except fairy tales would have a happy ending, where they encounter each other again and resume life where they left off. I'm in Florida, and I don't think that is possible.

I've gone online, searched his family's name for the state Pennsylvania, but the results are nothing. I've asked the church if they know what might've happened. Nothing. Is there anyway I can find him again!?
Please help.

[HuGzNKissEs]

Well being it was SO long ago..chances are he's moved on. But if its supposed to be...it WILL find a way to work out. I dont know ur beliefs but i am a christian & i believe God has each person's husband or wife already picked out. So if he's really right for you, he will return eventually. & if not, then be prepared b/c someone even BETTER for you is out there. Sorry if it's not what you wanted to hear....i tried. Hope this helps