Hilary, <333333333333333333333333 Options

[*salcha*]

So we were in the chatroom having the time of our lives unscrambling words when the screename "HeeWee" came in.
I'm keeping all updates of her up here.

Nov 29- 5:10 pm PST
HeeeeWeeee: Hey guys. This isn't Hilary.
HeeeeWeeee: This is Hilary's sister. I'm supposed to deliver a message to you all.
HeeeeWeeee: Okay. Late last night Hilary slipped into a coma and she's not doing so well.
HeeeeWeeee: She wanted me to tell you guys if anything happened.
HeeeeWeeee: I'm her younger sister.
HeeeeWeeee: Well, she's not doing well at all. She's not breathing very well and her heart rate has been dropping.
HeeeeWeeee: Well, she passed out and she was never able to wake up.
HeeeeWeeee: Yes, she's in the hospital.
HeeeeWeeee: I'm sorry to have to give you guys that news.
HeeeeWeeee: I'll update you guys frequently and especially if there are any changes.
HeeeeWeeee: Yeah, it's been a tough day for my family but we all faith that she'll pull through.
HeeeeWeeee: I'm going to go now but I'll leave up an away message on her screename in case anybody has any questions or messages you want me to give her.

Nov 29- 7:39 pm PST
HeeeeWeeee: She's on a ventilator right now and her heart rate has dropped into the 30s.
HeeeeWeeee: They're not sure if she'll make it through the night.


Nov 30- 8:25pm PST
HeeeeWeeee: Well, things were really tough last night. She got through the night alright, though.
HeeeeWeeee: She was looking a little better early this morning but then she went downhill.
HeeeeWeeee: No. Guys, it's really hard for me to say this...
HeeeeWeeee: but
HeeeeWeeee: Hilary passed away around 10 this morning.
HeeeeWeeee: I'm sorry to have to break the news to you guys.
HeeeeWeeee: Thanks both of you. I was pretty close to Hilary and it's kind of hard to think about that she's even gone right now. I keep thinking that she's going to come home and walk in the door any second.
HeeeeWeeee: I appreciate everybody's support. This is something that is really hard for me to do but I know that you are Hilary's friends and so I'm doing it for her.

RIP Hilary. I'm sorry.
You will definitely be missed.

I wish I got to know you better. We all love you, I'm just positively speechless right now because...it's hard. It's hard for us and your family. I've always admired you, from that time you said that you had to give up smkoing for your baby all the way till we got to know each other. Thanks for putting up with us. You were always open to anything, even when we were talking about your sickness. In the words of you..."I just want to live a life as normally as possible."

Look at some of her last words, you guys
http://www.createblog.com/forums/index.php?showuser=91641

I feel like I'm letting everybody down for not being strong enough.

Dear cB diary,

I'm sooo emotionally confused and physically weak. I don't have the energy to think about all the things whirling around in my head so I just break down and cry. I'm sick of this. I wish I could rewind time back to when I was happy and healthy. Before I made bad decisions that changed my life forever.

I don't know how long I have left to live and this fact is constantly in the back of my mind. I feel like I've been taking life for granted and now that I know that it is a very real possibility that I could die, I wish I paid attention to the small things in life. I'm regretting not spending as much time with my family as I should have in the past and I also regret wasting so much time doing nothing.

I'm so scared. I don't want to die. I've worked soooo hard since last March to turn my life around and now all my work might mean nothing. I just got accepted to two colleges and I hate thinking that I wasted my time applying to them if I might not even be around next year to go off to college. And if I am, will I be too sick to go?

I don't understand my doctors. I just got put on a new medication to raise my blood pressure but the medicine also has side affects that will make me even weaker, sicker, give me chills, and lower my heart rate. My resting heart rate is already in the low 50s so if it is lowered, it'll be in the mid 40s. When I go to sleep, my heart rate will drop even lower....which means that every night when I go to sleep, there's no guarantee that I'll wake up the next morning. This medicine is interacting with another one of my medications. I am taking a medicine so that my tumor that I had removed in May won't grow back and the interaction between my tumor medicine and my blood pressure medicine is making me really really sick. I can't stop the tumor medicine because my tumor could grow back (which means cancer) and I can't stop the blood pressure medication because I could collapse almost every day (and when I collapse, my heart stops for 15 seconds.....which means I could die).

This is all so complicated and I just don't want to deal with it. I need to talk to somebody that I can open up to. I don't want to tell my friends because I'm afraid that they'll be all worried about me. On the other hand, they might be mad that I didn't tell them if they somehow found out.

So all I can do is cry myself to sleep every night and hope that I wake up the next morning.

-Hilary

-I'm dying but I don't want to tell my friends. I don't know what to do because I don't want them to worry about me but if they find out, they'll probably be mad that I didn't tell them.

-I cry myself to sleep every night

-My parents are having custody fights and it hurts to hear them arguing about who's turn it is to take care of us. Only my sister and I know.

I'm pretending to be emotionally strong in front of my family about the situation I'm in but really, I'm crumbling on the inside. I'm scared shitless

It breaks me to read those. There's more, just look through her posts.

http://www.myspace.com/behindthesmile06


DrEaMgUy2K1: you can be sad for her if you want but i suggest you be happy for her , shes in a better place now we shouldnt remember her jus cuz she died but who she was
joooooleeah: no more suffering
DrEaMgUy2K1: keep her in your hearts but dont feel responsible for not being able to do
DrEaMgUy2K1: anything

OBVIOUSLY THIS IS ALL A LIE

In the chatroom, we went through her myspace,
last login? December 1.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v20/hunnysickle/sdfsfs.jpg

Next, we started to IM her friends from there.
AND WHAT DID WE GET??


Friend #1
findin sandy: findin sandy: hiii
getinthehole4206: hi
findin sandy: do you know of a girl
findin sandy: name hilary
getinthehole4206: yeah
getinthehole4206: why
findin sandy: Hilary Anne Keegan
findin sandy: her.
getinthehole4206: yes
findin sandy: i'm wondering
findin sandy: did she pass away a few days ago
getinthehole4206: no
getinthehole4206: why?
findin sandy: oh...
getinthehole4206: who is this?
findin sandy: some girl.. i goto createblogforum
getinthehole4206: okay, why are you asking me this?
findin sandy: http://www.createblog.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=112400
findin sandy: because of that.
findin sandy: are you sure hilary didnt pass away
getinthehole4206: yes, i talked to her today
findin sandy: do you see the thread..
findin sandy: is hilary really sick too
getinthehole4206: who is this?
findin sandy: just some girl who goes on that forum.
getinthehole4206: yes she is
getinthehole4206: this is just...really odd to me
getinthehole4206: i talked to her today
findin sandy: well. hilarys the one that punked us
findin sandy: if that is the same girl
getinthehole4206: no, hilary would not do that
findin sandy: http://images5.theimagehosting.com/Picture70.1.jpg
findin sandy: is that the same hilary you know
getinthehole4206: all you need to know is shes alive
getinthehole4206: this is sick

Friend #2
TrthBtyFrdLove: hey
TrthBtyFrdLove: who is this?
TrthBtyFrdLove: I'm a friend of Hilary's
findin sandy: this is sandy

Auto response from TrthBtyFrdLove: where are my freaking heels?!

findin sandy: i go to this forum
findin sandy: and her sister imed everybody in this chat
TrthBtyFrdLove: okay
findin sandy: and said hilary passed away
findin sandy: i was curious to see if it was true
findin sandy: want to see the site?
TrthBtyFrdLove: No, look
TrthBtyFrdLove: ...hold up\
findin sandy: alright
TrthBtyFrdLove: BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii miranda. i love you :-D
TrthBtyFrdLove: That is hilary
findin sandy: OH
TrthBtyFrdLove: I got that around 8pm
findin sandy: does she have another aim sn
TrthBtyFrdLove: Hilary?
findin sandy: yes
TrthBtyFrdLove: Not that I know of.
TrthBtyFrdLove: what's going on?
findin sandy: omg


alright, we figured it out.
After IMing a ton of people and trying to sort this all out, the first friend up there told us that hilary's sn was Behindthesmile06 or something. Which is the same user as her myspace which has pictures that HeeWee on cB used. Then the sn Behindthesmile IMs Sandy:


findin sandy: BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: hey can you explaih something to me?
findin sandy: yeah
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: um who the hell are yoU?
findin sandy: i'm sandy
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: sorry i'm just SOOO confused
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: because my friends just called me and told me that you knew me?
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: and i don't know you
findin sandy: http://www.createblog.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=112400
findin sandy: somebody is posing as you.
findin sandy: that hilary went to a create blog forum
findin sandy: and i know this because i found your myspace
findin sandy: and her pictures
findin sandy: her webcam pictures
findin sandy: because she posts in members pic
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: is there any way to delete all of this?
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: this is soooooo weird
findin sandy: i have no idea
findin sandy: did you use to go on createblog.com
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: i've never signed up. i might have one time or another for xanga a long time ago or something
findin sandy: do you know of the sn
findin sandy: thesweetescape
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: no i dont
findin sandy: how about heeeeweeee
BEHiNDTHESMiLE06: no
chef boyarding: heewee stole behindthesmile's



SCAM.

This post has been edited by salcha: Dec 2 2005, 01:08 AM

[*Funkadelic.Kiss*]

oh gosh, hilary we have never really talk but hope you are going better soon.
good luck hilary