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[lKVNiiKINKYl]

Well, for all of you reading this...
I was planning to tell him, but he found out from someone and I don't know who told him. Now both him & his girlfriend (whom I'm friends with) aren't talking now.

- Edit -

Well, this story started back in June, but I'll try to sum it up quickly.

June - August
I came out gay. I started falling for one of my closest friends. He was the only one who supported me. I tried avoiding him in July & August because I thought the feelings would go away.

September
School started and he's in my homeroom so I just tried to deal with the fact he was back in my life on a daily routine. I played everything off as just a crush and it was stupid and it was going to go away. We were walking to practice one day and he was like, "yo did you know gay people scare me? Not you though, your cool." It meant a lot to me and it made me feel better because a lot of people was always starting sh*t with me and he always just made me feel better.

October
He invited me to a party, I said no because I was wimpy. I was talking to one of my friends and she told me that she thought I was falling in love with him. I play it off again thinking that it could never happen. I mean, he's my best friend.

November
Here's where the fun begins. We start hanging out more because I'm a loser who always tries to hang around him. My feelings start to escalate and I just like him more and more to the extent I have trouble being around him. Last night we were at the mall and someone invited him so I decided to leave. I felt like buying chapstick before I left so I went to a store like right next to the exit. I went in and waited in the long ass line and I was about to buy it when I see him at the window and he runs to the window. I literally drop everything I have (which was about a five dollar bill and some change) and I run out. He starts to chase me (and he just happens to be the track all star) so he runs after me and catches me in like two seconds. He's like hey whats up, and I just look at him and run out. I just felt so, well I don't know how I felt. Later last night, I texted him and say I needed to talk to him today (there was a crew dinner party). The party gets canceled, and restarted and my friend calls him to tell him to come over because its on again but he doesn't come. I wasn't sure if he was going to come in the first place, but I really don't know what to do at this point.

So basically what I'm asking is what should I do. My friends think I'm in love with him besides me knowing I'm not, I can't be. He's my best friend. I want to tell him, but I'm afraid that what I think he's going to do, he's not...if that makes any sense. Well, I'll explain if you don't get it. I picture him just being, oh thats cool and not making a big deal out of it, but what he said earlier (2nd to last line in September) is what makes me worry that he's going to freak out. I don't want to lose him as a friend because he's more than just a friend to me, but I can't just start talking to him like we used to because there are just so many emotions that swell up and all that crap.

[ceara cecilyrose]

Wow. Eeirie.

Two good friends of mine were in a situation thats not all that dissimilar.
A gay friend of mine felt lust at first sight upon meeting another friend of mine (who asserts that he is straight but I have my doubts) who is quite homophobic.

My gay friend ended up confessing his feelings to the 'straight' friend. Anyways, the straight friend said he was flattered etcetc but was straight and thus didn't feel the same way but was happy to be friends.

So they stayed friends, but all the while my gay friend kept on battling his feelings for my straight friend - not at all helped by the fact that my straight friend gives out gay 'vibes' and has experimented with males before, to quite a great extent/ This happened later on down the track, after my gay friend had moved interstate because he didn't like being around my straight friend because of his feelings towards him that he wanted to try to get over.
My gay friend is slowly but surely getting over my straight friend although this was made much more difficult when he found out about my straight friends experimenting (imagine what that did to his body image and self esteem!)


Anyways, my point (if I have one at all) is that it can be a really tricky situation. Either way, you're likely to be in for some heartache *hugs*
Ultimately the decision to tell your friend how you feel about him has to be yours and yours alone. I think you must be a very brave person for coming out so young, it can't have been easy for you!