Crying is for Sissies! Options

[Shahin]

On a more serious note....

Have any of you guys cried recently? I was just reading that topic down the ways about if people cried when they broke up with their boyfriend/girlfriends and I got the idea for this topic.

I've built a wall around myself. I haven't cried in 3 years (when my grandma died).
Prior to that, I had two friends leave me. One died in a shootout, and the other in a car crash. I cried. Hell, I bawled. When my grandma died, I don't know. It was a lot to take in, especially because it was Christmas holidays and she had been showing signs that she was getting better. When she left us, I cried some more. I let out everything I had, emotionally and physically. I haven't cried since.

I've known my friend Garrett since before I could talk. We grew up in east LA, our moms had us playing together since before I could remember. Everywhere I went, he would be. Everywhere he was, I was. We were inseperable. I moved away from LA, my dad got a job and we were moving on to bigger and better things, but I knew where my roots were so I would always go back on vacations back to LA to kick it with my old friends.
Eight Monthes ago I got a phone call from my boy Shifty. Garrett died in a drive-by shooting.

After all I went through in the past, this was the most shocking. My first friend, the guy that I of all people was supposed to protect, keep safe was dead. The guilt I've felt from that day has been insane, I know I couldn't have done anything and that isn't particularly what I feel guilty for. I'm not complaining, and I'm not asking to be consoled, I'm just telling a story of what happens when people bottle up their feelings. I didn't cry when I got that phone call. I couldn't. No tears were there, and none have come. None will come.

Don't bottle up your feelings, that's what I did. For a time after my friend went home (heaven), I felt absolutely nothing. I felt nothing, nobody could break the box I had created around myself. Until I met a girl. But that's a whole different story that nobody wants to hear. Remember though, cry when you have to even if your the macho type. You don't necesarily have to do it to a live public audience guys, but do it nonetheless.

Sorry for making this story so long...Couldn't find a way to shorten it any more.

[Etab]

It's natural to cry, you were designed to cry. Don't let society fool you. It's not healthy to keep things bottled up, like it was said before, it will lead to anger if you don't let it out.

It's kind of hard not to feel sorry for you, but if I were you I'd just keep going and try to talk about those people as infrequently as possible.