uggh ., getting over a first love; Options

[supjuls]

Okay, I met this guy through my cousin and him and I went out. And I'll just call him ???!; because i'm cool like that. It was great because he made me sooo happy. And to be honest, he was the only guy i've ever loved. We went out for a few months but then broke up because I had to move to this DUMP. I felt like sh-t. At the time, my family and I were staying in a hotel, so i told me mom i had to return something and i cried in the public bathroom by the main lobby. Hah, I didnt really care if someone walked in and heard me. Before my family and I PCSed, we went on vacation. I didnt have fun at all because ???!; was all i could think about.

When we got to Italy ( it's not as nice as you think . ) and our household goods came in, i got on messenger and talked to ???!; I guess he changed over the summer because i felt like i didnt know him anymore. Thats when i decided it was time for me to move on. Imet another guy here and now we're going out. ???!; asked me if i had a BF and i said no. I didnt know why i lied to him though. I think it was because i was scared.

I wanted to find out if he still had any feelings for me, like i still do for him, but i dont know if its possible now. He foun out that i lied to him, and he told me he was going to go out with this other girl. When he said that i just froze. And yeah, i am a little jealous. And as for me and John, i dont know whats going to happen. I know i'm waasting his time so i'm going to try to fix things. I just want to know if the way i feel about my ex is normal or if im just messed up. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.

[mouse_3k]

Well me and my first love went out for about 5 months. Personally for me, I just didnt want to do NE thin with him for a few months. I refused to talk to him, I refused to see him, I refused to do anything with him.

I just tried to be independent from him for a while. then soon enough we started talking again and now hes my friend. Im not sure if he still likes me or not because we just had a talk about the past like 2 days ago and now my feelings are confused. I love nadir so of course im not goin to leave or cheat.

Just try to space urself from him and move on. Find someone better and that treats you better. Even though ur first love might not be out of ur mind for a while *My first love still runs in my mind everyday and its been a year* but just spacing urself from him, it really helps