Heartbroken, ever felt it? Options

[kantoaznboi]

its a dumbass question, but ever felt heartbroken? if u wanna tell ur story, go on ahead, dont be discouraged

my story, if u wanna read it, not not, its coo

ok, i've been friends wit dis gurl named jenn and we was coo. it all began frosh year when i started likin her, and i thought it was a crush and stuff, but as the year went by, it grew into soemthin more, cause i got 2 know her better. then by soph year she practically stole my hear but didnt have the guts 2 do anythin bout it. My homeboi warned me bout her, how she doenst really wanted a relationship in HS, but i didnt listen 2 him. so finally summer came and i finally summed up all my courage and decided 2 ask her out. i gave her roses and shit, but then she turned me down and wat my hb warned me bout is the same reason y she turned me down. it didnt hit me at 1st but later on it started hurting hella big time. even 2 dis day(i'm a jr now) i'm still not over her. everytime we pass each other, she smiles and it just tears my soul apart and just catching a glimpse of her hurts like a mother..................................... the way she acts is the one of the main reasons y my feelings began 2 grow. blahness...............

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Well since only kantoaznboi has really opened up, I'll share a story too.

So there's this guy. And we're good friends for about a year... better friends than I was with any girls. We both know that we were absolutely falling for each other, but for awhile we didn't officially "go out". But we acted as if we were. We may have even been in love.

Of course, the difficulty with not actually going out is that neither of us officially have to be "faithful" because the relationship is only implied. &so I suppose he wanted to get the best of two things. While we were having our little thing, I don't even know what to call it, he decided he was going to mess around with some girls at his cool. Not so cool. Well, I found out, and he apologized profusely and swore he'd never do it again.

&I fell right into his trap. Whether his intentions were good or not, I forgave him and we continued our relationship. Even though it doesn't sound like it really was much of a relationship, al contrare. We talked on the phone until midnight... We wrote each other love letters. We had "our songs". From my point of view, at least, I thought it was pretty intense.

He must have thought otherwise, because his little side projects didn't stop. When I confronted him about them, he'd always say, "I'm not good enough for you, Courtney. You deserve better than me."

Nyeh. &the story goes on. I'll save you some time: things don't get any better. They still haven't, in fact.

We haven't talked for awhile. He needs time to figure out his life.

&if you would ask me if I still loved him, I would automatically say no.

But if you turned on the Dashboard Confessional CD "A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar" (which was "our" CD, and I always listened to it while we were on the phone), I'd start crying.


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fin.