No one knows Options

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No one knows how I'm feeling. On the outside, I may seem like a normal teenager, but on the inside, there's too much pain...too much for me to bare. For 7 years now, my dad has been a gambling addict. During these 7 years, I've experienced things that are more heart-breaking than any of you can imagine. No one knows what it feels like when you have to hire a driver to drive you to the casino to find your dad, or knowing that 2 months worth of income has been lost after your dad comes home at 4 in the morning. Right now, my family is literally broken apart. My mom is 3000 miles away trying to get a degree and find a job and my dad just left a note this morning saying that he's flying to toronto. At the same time, my parents expect me to get in the best universities, but how can I do anything with this much stress inside of me? You might think I'm just trying to get attention by saying all this, and maybe I am. But I can't hold this in any longer. I've been having suicidal thoughts for awhile now, but they don't mean anything. I just want people to understand how I feel.

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Okay, in all honesty, I don't you know personally. But, ANYONE turning to suicide to fix their problems needs serious help.

This is most DEFINITELY is an extremely serious matter. Don't get me wrong, I don't mean to offend you under any circumstance, but I don't think anyone should have to think things that horrible about themselves.

You REALLY need to talk to someone. That really IS an important matter, and if no one listens to you, they're nuts. If if they don't, I most certainly will. That may sound weird, coming from a complete stranger.. But, that needs to stop, and I'd like to help if no one else.

How old are you, may I ask? Because, I assume you're what, 15? Somewhere around there? If so, you haven't even been able to see life yet. May sound corny, but it is the honest truth. Just think about what you're losing, what with your family, friends, community and even mere acquaintences at school.

--And with the Gambling father... People have addictions. I'm not saying it's a good thing, definitely not... But, you'll have to give him a reason to stop. Suicide or suicide attempt is NOT a reason, that could cause the addiction to worsen. But, next time you see him, just tell him how much he means to you, and that you need someone there for you.

There ARE people out there that care, you just might not know.
Because I care, even though we're not properly acquainted.
Don't take that out of consideration. Please.
Sorry so long, just wanted to get my point across.
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