growing up Christian Options

[eunie03]

I've lived a pretty dogmatic life. I haven't known much else. I started talking to a friend who's a philosophy major, and he up and tells me he thinks we just disappear after this. We have no soul, no spirit. We just live and die, and decompose. Like we never existed.

It's kind of pointless then. To live a Christian life.

I've been trying to get away from it since the end of high school. Christianity, I mean. But no matter how hard I try, it's so hard for me to believe that this is it. That there's no heaven or hell. Then I think about all the years I've wasted going to church and essentially just talking to the ceiling in my room.

It's just as easy for me to doubt it all.

Anyway, the point of my topic. If you've grown up in a church, you've probably noticed how much stronger the fire is in the newborn Christian. Growing up with it... it just makes everything mundane and routine. Have you ever denounced Christianity, just so you can have that newborn fire? Do you think it's a sin? To want to experience the world and gain some sort of insight before blindly following the faith?

[Mulder]

im jewish (well not really...actually), and grew up that way. i went to synagogue most saturdays, acted like a normal kid..sometimes singing the prayers, sometimes doodling or folding the programs into shapes...i actually used to braid my dads tallis (prayer shall). but...i never really believed it. i guess i lost my sense of belief really young...too young. my parents fought all the time, my dad would yell at me, and i never understood why. so i used to pray to god everynight to make my parents happy, and he never did. and i couldnt believe that any god would ever let a child suffer every day like that....so i stopped believing. and today im agnostic.