why do i draw people away?, im pathetic... Options

[imhyper]

does this belong here??? welll...
sometimes, i think people look at me at a whole different way....i dont know why...but, in the outside they look normal, but in the inside they must be thinking...
"man, what an idiot", or "eww, why are you talking to me?" then they try to avoid me like the flu
I not sure weather it's my ugly face, my conversation, or my voice. Then, i think im ANNOYING PEOPLE!!! It always happens- everywhere, from cB, my house, my school, EVERYWHERE!! (see, i bet right now, u are getting annoyed by me) I DRAW PEOPLE AWAY!! my parents, my sister, my teachers, people at school, people on the internet. Not 1 person that knows me, comes up to me and says hi-(other than my 2 closest friends)<.< NOBODY!! I would have to say hi to them myself, and then i think im annoying that person AND NOW, SOME OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS ARE MOVING, AND I THINK IM THE CAUSE OF IT!!

people hate me right?

[imhyper]

well, my close friends say that i have "very pretty long brown hair" which i know is not true. And that i have such a baby face and i look like a 7th grader-when really im a 9th grader. Well, i know that im not "nerdy" but I dress normally.

I just think i look ugly, and that people purposely, try to avoid me.
I'm almost 15 AND I HAVENT EVEN GOT MY FIRST KISS YET!!! >:O

[elaboratedream]

I'm almost 15 AND I HAVENT EVEN GOT MY FIRST KISS YET!!!  >:O

hey, I'm 15 and I still haven't gotten my first kiss...

but back to the topic, maybe you're overly hyper, too nice, not nice enough or maybe YOU'RE JUST PARANOID. Hey, I have the same problem... but don't let that stand in the way of making new friends and stuff. Try talking to them more. Maybe they feel the same way. Maybe they think that you don't like them or find them annoying. Whatever the case may be, just be yourself and don't listen to the annoying voice in your head (not literally...) that tells you that they think you're annoying.

and about being ugly, most people think that of themselves. I always used to think that of myself (and still do sometimes...) but you need to remember that everyone is beautiful in their own way. the standard of beauty in today's society is unreasonable and people need to understand that there is no such thing as perfection. And anyone who would avoid you just because of your appearance is shallow and wouldn't make a very good friend anyways. (same goes to people who only hang out with you because they think you're hott... *mutters darkly* but that's a whole different issue.)

as for your friends moving away, it sucks big hairy monkey balls I'm sure, but I'm positive they aren't moving away because of you. You'd have to be some creepy stalker or something for them to want to go to that extreme to avoid you. That's the part of your post that assured me that you're paranoid. Chill a bit, and try to stay in touch with those friends.

okay, I've rambled enough... basically, just be yourself and act more confident (but not arrogant) and you'll make more friends.