growing up Christian Options

[eunie03]

I've lived a pretty dogmatic life. I haven't known much else. I started talking to a friend who's a philosophy major, and he up and tells me he thinks we just disappear after this. We have no soul, no spirit. We just live and die, and decompose. Like we never existed.

It's kind of pointless then. To live a Christian life.

I've been trying to get away from it since the end of high school. Christianity, I mean. But no matter how hard I try, it's so hard for me to believe that this is it. That there's no heaven or hell. Then I think about all the years I've wasted going to church and essentially just talking to the ceiling in my room.

It's just as easy for me to doubt it all.

Anyway, the point of my topic. If you've grown up in a church, you've probably noticed how much stronger the fire is in the newborn Christian. Growing up with it... it just makes everything mundane and routine. Have you ever denounced Christianity, just so you can have that newborn fire? Do you think it's a sin? To want to experience the world and gain some sort of insight before blindly following the faith?

[eunie03]

Hey!... I didn't think you were around.

I don't know. Sorry about how disorganized my post was. I was just tired, I guess.

Wouldn't you have more conviction if you knew you -chose- the faith? Not just lived with it like some tumor.

[*kryogenix*]

Hey!... I didn't think you were around.

I don't know. Sorry about how disorganized my post was. I was just tired,  I guess.

Wouldn't you have more conviction if you knew you -chose- the faith? Not just lived with it like some tumor.

For me, I felt like I didn't have as much conviction up until my Confirmation. After that, I knew I was a Catholic because I chose so, not because my parents wanted me to be one.

There are a lot of challenges. I think I've spent more time in science class than I have in church. I've heard many arguments saying God doesn't exist, that he didn't really create life, that religion is for the weak. But in the end, there is more proof for me that God exists than there is evidence supporting some of the scientific theories we learn in school.