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[*mzkandi*]

originally started by faithin_felix.

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Most of you know the drill. Comment and/or quote someone elses entry but you must also make your own.


Dear cB,
My first quiz is tommorrow. I may have to pull an all-nighter tonight. Hopefully not....

[*lolita kitty*]

you know what? im going to get this all out, right here, right now.

dear cb diary,
ok, i am done with this. im just so tired of it. her problems which she always takes out on me, her critisizing which is always on me, her corrections, which is always about what i say... everything. ok so technically, she didnt do anything wrong, but she knows all of this is true, she just wants to make me look bad as always.
you see, these are her problems: denial, being a big hypocryte, and steryotyping.
yeah. she just... i don't even know where to begin.
you know, when i left natomas middle, i was so happy. one: because i was finally going to be united again with my bff. two: because i was going to go further with my interests in performing art, and three? because i was getting away from you... yes YOU.

no matter what, you always have to be there to insult, critisize, or corect me, in a rude yet technical manner. i did nothing to you. NOTHING. and yet, you go everywhere i go and quote my every words as if im the evil villan here. oh yeah? shove it up your ass. i honestly don't care. i mean, no matter what, you're always there. like an annoying dog that never goes away. first, you sit there and yell at me at school, because everything i say is just oh so "stupid immature hypocrytical or steryotypical", and once i leave, you continue! i mean, you joined cb months ago, and never bothered to post until now. now yo're an addict, just like me, and you clain its because everything else is boring.

oh yeah. uh huh. sure. this is why... oh i dont even know. i mean, im NOT going to quit cb because of you, but i sure as hell am not going to let this get to me.

and one thing? you are very smart. very tricky. very good at making it look as if you did nothing wrong. so technically, its not bad that you joined cb because technically, you were just bored with everything else. and technically, you aren't a showoff because technically, they came p to you. technically, you did nothing wrong, but technically, you know you ant all the attention. yeah, admit it, you know you like attention. that whole "the part about me wanting attention was wrong" thing? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. THAT MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD. you know it was true, but technically you did nothing to prove it. so you make a good drawing, and technically, you didn't show it off, you just flipped throuigh your nmotebnook repeatidely until someone comes around and compliments it. and then you just say thanks as if you never wanted the attention in the first place.
i just dont get you. what you do. i don't get it. i mean- why me? why not some other attention wanting whore who goes to your school. its like... i dunno. you read all my myspace comments [and even made jenny read them. pathetic], and then you sit there and rant about how stupid they are. you read all my anga posts, all my cb postts, EVERYTHING. but technically, i cant blame you for anything, because technically i did this to you too. once. back in janruary. and you werent even sure.
and the last thing? i dont care. at first, i always cryed when you insulted me. i always got mad and went to bed, crying, or even a school, thinking "go away.. go away"
but now i get it. i get it all,. technically, you did nothing wrong, while you did eerything in the world wrong.

so go ahead and quote me. quote my every word about how wrong i am, and how stupid i am. go ahead and make copies for the whole school, make flyers, show everyone what a nut i am for getting this all out and ranting. but thats too bad because i hope you remember that- you do it just as much. but in a very fancy technical matter.

and its so sad that you make me look bad. "shes so immature. she always stomps away and gets mad" so when excactly did i do this? well definately not today =). today, you said someting, i didn't agree, and then i quoted it and told you how i felt. and then you did the same to me, and i failed to respond back bcause i was to pissed and tired to argue withyou. so where in that did i immaturely throw a fit and stomp away? no where. i didnt think so =)

now i dont care. i dont care what you have to say. i dont care if you think i am the most steryotypical stupid attention wanting whore in the world, because i know you are just as muich, and it all gets taken out on me. [well, technically not]. and now i get it. i get it all. i dont care anymore. so you think im wrong? well tats too bad. im sorry your brain feels that way about my op[inions.
now that you're addicted to cb and whatnot, i was mad. yeah, i got real mad. but now? now i don't care. so what. sp who cares if you make 3x as many posts as me and become one of the most loved members on cb. im just going to sit there, smile, and say "thats good for her. i am just so proud". who cares if you quote my every phrase and think its all wrong and stupid. im just going to say "good for you. i am so happy you have your own opinions" and if you send me a 67890 page rant through pm about how stupid you think i am, i am just going to skim through it, and smile and say "how nice that she feels that way"
and if you say the same for my diary entry? well i dont care, once again, because i got everything i wanted to say out, and now i feel a hell of alot better.

why? because now i go to a school where im with my bff of 3 years, everyone appriciates me and likes me for who i am, and im happy. thats the most important thing, that i am happy. i feel great. my life is good, and im not going to let your oh-so blunt, honest, ranting self ruin it for me.

im not going to complain any more. im not going to rant about how annoying you are to me. i got this out, and now i feel better. i feel way better. so yes, im goig to see you tonight at kristeens party. you know what im going to say? im going to say hi, and talk to you as normal as possible. im not sure if i still want to go now. but if i do, this is excactly what i'll say. ill keep it as normal as possible. and then, on monday, ill go back to school, back to brandi and all of my other charter friends and go on with my life. and if you act the same? well, ill just ignore it, and shrug it off. thats good for you. good that you feel that way. i am so proud of you =)

so im done. i feel alot better now. thank you =)