Message To Anyone, Volume 11 |
 Sep 14 2005, 09:55 PM
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You know the drill.
To Christina-- Thanks SO much for being there today :) I know I sucked at the dance before you taught me the moves, thanks for being so darn patient! I love you! To ______________ : I saw you in the car today..you are so freaking cute. Everyone says so. ARGH, I WANT YOU. haha. --Teesa |
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Sep 15 2005, 08:19 PM
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 Yawn Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 9,530 Joined: Nov 2004 Member No: 65,772 |
God,
I'm frustrated. Very frustrated, worse off then before. and yah i know that your thoughts are higher then mine, but ahg=afg;djkldsfjlsd!!! i can't seem to grasp that maybe. I see a happy couple or someone who is happy in general and i feel bitter and my heart hurts. I feel like ur hacking down all the good things in my life? Is it because you want me to get outta my comfort zone? Well if that's it, then you've done a good job with that. Is it so I could trust you more or somethan? i have no idea. I've been kinda mad at everyone lately. If not sad tears, then they are hot and full of anger. Mad at myself, and let's face it, right now i'm mad at you. I feel like screaming at you, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?! WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?!" You know the same thing has been happening to Grace too! It's like we're the same person. Steve asked her today, and she wanted to scream out, " YES! I've missedyou so much" (and believe me she has), and she had to say No. and it took everything inside of her to say no. UGH! WHY. Why does it have to be like this. My heart is killing me, and i want to quit everything and hide. and i can't. you won't let me. I feel so invisible. Not good enough. stressed. lost. and dying inside. HOW IS THIS EXACTLY SUPPOSED TO HELP?! YOu gave me somethan to do, and I did it. ok! are you happy now? I hope you are happy, cuz i am miserable. And even as i write this, i'm ashamed cuz i know better. I KNOW ur thoughts are higher, and i know u have everything under control. But i'm so angry!!!!!! and so lost, and so small. heartbroken. Then there are those timese i just want to cry, and i can't. There is a lump in my throat, and my heart is aching, but i can't cry. And then an hour later, crocodile tears. I want this stuff to go away. this pain. I want to sit at the beach, with a blank notebook, and write. Write music, listen to the waves. Get some popcorn. Smell the ocean. Right now even theatre is stressing me out! Theatre! That's like my own release! I want to draw, but don't have the time or energy between papers, auditions, homework, and everything. And yes, ur stripping everything out of my life. Yes, I know. I know . I know. You've made that very clear, especially lately. God, I need ur help please. I'm not able to do this alone at all. I'm very much lost. |
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