Lonely..., Im so lonely. Options

[under-world]

Ok, heres how it goes. I am an extremely lonely eigth grader. I go to a christian school. Even if it is a christian school its filled with jerks who make fun of me. My last name is litterally the word "Gay" and not to mention I'm a computer genius. That scares everyone away.

I am at that age where it seems as if I have to have a girl and I know I don't need one yet my heart tells me I do.

Most of my friends are girls cause all the guys are immature. alot of the girls claim they woulod date me but I doubt it. I have a problem with telling girls when I like them. I told as close friend of mine last year htat I liked her and she turned completely against me. Never talked to me again and even left my school. I hate my life at some parts. I dont want to risk losing any more friends yet I dont want to be lonely.

You dont need to help but i needed to vent my feelings on the internet somewhere.

[rinchan089]

I'd say wait until highschool or college. People are more mature then. Personally, I'm waiting until college. I think it's unnecessary to have a bf/gf when you're most likely not going to spend the rest of your life with them. I'd rather have a really close guy friend who I could possibly get married to but don't because we'd wait until college.

By the way, you're not the only hopeless romantic out their either. I had alot of relationship problems in 8th grade, too. As you get older, you'll realize how amusing and fun it is to be single. When you're single, you can do anything you want and talk to anyone you want. You can be independent. In our adolescence, perhaps the most important lesson is learning how to just that while learning to interac with other people. Let me tell you, it will be much harder to achieve that when you depend on a relationship to feel whole. My friend is like that and he hates it but is stuck in a rut of dependency and immaturity.

Maturing is much easier as a single guy/girl with his/her friends. You find the most about yourself from your friends, not relationships.

Rin-chan