Lonely..., Im so lonely. Options

[under-world]

Ok, heres how it goes. I am an extremely lonely eigth grader. I go to a christian school. Even if it is a christian school its filled with jerks who make fun of me. My last name is litterally the word "Gay" and not to mention I'm a computer genius. That scares everyone away.

I am at that age where it seems as if I have to have a girl and I know I don't need one yet my heart tells me I do.

Most of my friends are girls cause all the guys are immature. alot of the girls claim they woulod date me but I doubt it. I have a problem with telling girls when I like them. I told as close friend of mine last year htat I liked her and she turned completely against me. Never talked to me again and even left my school. I hate my life at some parts. I dont want to risk losing any more friends yet I dont want to be lonely.

You dont need to help but i needed to vent my feelings on the internet somewhere.

[Spirited Away]

sweetie, i have a friend whose last name is Gay and if there are people who'd make fun of her or her brothers for it, they're not worth anyone's time. and though this may not be easy, don't let immaturity, the shallowness of others bring you down. it's not worth it.

and it's not your heart that's telling you you want a girl, it's your hormones. this is normal and very hard to control at any age. trust me on this. i'm not even going to tell you to try to subdue them because it wouldn't be an easy accomplishment, but i want to tell you to not let it get the best of your emotions. feeling like you want a girl is one thing, but feeling lonely because you don't have a girlfriend at your age is simply your hormones going haywire.