if only, things that i'd have you know, in time. Options

[*Tainted Euphoria*]

A monologue for a certain someone. I have no idea what I'm doing, and no idea as to how to control what I feel. If only I could let him know what he does to me.
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How is it that our brief encounter has branded an image of you in my mind, in my heart? Am I that much of a fool to let you get so close to me? I'm not sure if I have an answer to that.

I feel the proverbial spark beginning to burn and I don't know whether to fan it, or blow it out. It would seem to easy to brush this off and never speak to you again, wouldn't it? No matter how many times I tell myself that, I still find that I turn the corner hoping to see you there. I open my eyes seeing your face. I'm infatuated in such a way that it would be considered disturbing. It should disturb me, but it doesn't. I've begun imagining what life would be like by your side. I have yet to see your flaws. I have yet to hear your dark secrets, but for some reason, I don't think I'd care.

You've completely shaken my world. Demolished walls that I've spent years building. Smeared the blueprint that I had drawn up for my life. I'm enamored and I'm helpless to stop it. Please, my heart flutters a million miles a minute for you. Don't kill it.

[illumineering]

I have yet to see your flaws. I have yet to hear your dark secrets, but for some reason, I don't think I'd care.

Ooohh...the heartache...I can see it building on the horizon. Realizing the "perfection" of another is a reflection of what we seek to know of ourselves. When we can achieve that knowledge, the ups and downs of romantic relationships tend to smooth out.

Please don't give away your gifts to anyone or anything you are not willing to see completely. Life is too precious to blindly live outside of ourselves.