Help me.., Arr Options

[Paradox of Life]

Okay, I'm back again for help. I bet you're thinking I'm one of those immature 7th graders that would trade boyfriends on and off, but I'm really not like that. If I were like that, I would've said yes to the several people that asked me out just for the publicity. Truthfully, I don't give a damn about any boys that I don't like. But ANYWAY, this is the problem...

One day at school social, my friend and I were just hanging out, talking, socializing and my crush comes over like "Hey, what's up?". So yeah, we kind of eye each other and start talking with him. I always thought he had a crush on my friend, but my friend thought he had a crush on me. Anyway, when my friend went to call her mom to pick her up, he asked me out and I said yes, without thinking, I guess..

So, after that, we hung out a lot and saw each other all the time between classes. He has a friend I'll call D. So D would always be trying to get him to talk to me, hug me, kiss me, etc. We nicknamed him the 'matchmaker fairy'. And I ended up getting pretty close to D and obviously close to my boyfriend, which I'll call N. I always felt a bit distant from him though.

So my problem is.. I was talking to him and I asked him why he asked me out. And he said "Because you're hot". Okay.. I found that kind of rude, but then again, I've had so many bad relationship problems, I really couldn't just let him go. I mean, he's the only kid that's hugged me, kissed my cheek and said he loved me without being ashamed of it.

We had planned to hang out next weekend and take guitar lessons together if his mom would let him. It was so convenient for me. And he seemed like a really good friend.

And then I asked him how many girls he'd asked out. And he said a bunch. And I said, how many accepted? And he said about 5. You can't help but think he'll dump me in a week and move on.

AND THEN I saw him in the hall talking to D about how hot this one girl was and how hot she thought he was. And so I got really pissed off then and walked to class without him.

Then in the hall, when I was walking to lunch, he caught up to me and I said "You have some explaining to do" And he said "I'm sorry!" And then I said "Forget about next weekend, forget about guitar lessons, and forget anything that happened between us. I'm just too good for you." (Everyone was like "Ooooh..")

And so I ate lunch by myself, occasionally looking at him. HE WAS THE ONLY KID THAT WAS GENUINE TO ME. Or maybe not. I wouldn't know. I just feel so bad that I let this oppritunity go.

Then at advisory we had to go watch a presentation and he's in football, so I snuck over to that section of the cafeteria and sat next to him. And he just smiled at me real sweet and D was with him as well. And he was all "Awwwwww." And N said he wanted me back. But I said I never asked for him back, but I didn't know what to say at the time.

SOOOOOOOO, WHAT SHOULD I DO?

[Paradox of Life]

That helped alot. Good thing I have the weekend to think over it. But I pretty much know what I'm going to do. Communication is the key. And peaceful breakups are always better.