Neglective, What happened? Options

[Paradox of Life]

Okay, usually I'm not the kind of person that would care about things like this, but it was last year when I had my first boyfriend. 6th grade. You're probably thinking it was some pathetic little puppy love piece of shit thing, but I really thought I was in love. And you would think I'd gotten over it by now since it's been what.. 4 months since we broke up. Well.. it started with a love letter he sent me. We'd known each other for only about 7 or 8 months. Well, it was the sweetest thing I had ever read in my whole life. 2 pages of how much he adored me and how he felt when he first saw me a such. I suppose I let 'first love' cloud my judgment for the duration of our 'going steady'.

He was in 8th grade and I was in 6th (he's 14 and I'm 12). He was embarrassed to hang out with me in public, so we'd keep it a secret and meet after school. But oftentimes whenever I said hello to him and there were other people around, he'd just ignore me and I wondered if it was because he was ashamed of loving me. We exchanged letters for 2 months or so and I kept them in my closet. I thought about giving them all back, but I decided against it. I don't even remember where they all are to this day.

After a while, I got sick and tired of him treating me this way. He wrote me a letter saying that he thought it would be better if he hung out with kids of his own age and me with kids my age. That was a comment hidden between lots of others (let's meet at the library, you're so hot!) and it just totally pissed me off. He even gave me a necklace inside that letter. But I gave it back to him and told him to leave me alone. To hang out with kids his own age.

I don't know if I broke up with him or he broke up with me, but I've been dreaming about him as if we were still good friends. Is this normal? Did I do the right thing? Is there something better I could have done?

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

itis this normal ? - there actually are a lot of relationships kept secret. dont feel alone, theres always people who share the same problem

did i do the right thing - thats only ever you to decied but i think you, im proud that you decided to end it. [ you ended it not him i think .. by giving him back the necklace ] he shoudlnt be ashamed or try to hide you. if he "loved" you the way he said so in his note he'd want to bring you and showcase you to his friends. you shouldnt overanalyze things like these, it always end bad i speak from exerience. i analyze every little aspect and get so worried and stressed.

something better ? - i dont really think so. he should never act like that about your relationship. theres always another choice but you did what you did and i think it was a good decision.