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originally started by faithin_felix.
version1 version2 version3 version4 i think this is self-explanitory, no? but don't post in here just quoting and commenting another's post, you must post your own 'entry' as well. -------------- dear cb diary, last night was fun. i was so glad i had her to talk to and i know that i can trust her. i actually told her my little 'secret' and it was such a relief. i didn't tell her the whole secret obviously but still...it felt so good to just get that out, y'know? and she didn't treat me like a bad person about it which was great. its true though...one can't control how one feels. feelings just happen. its like that quote... "Any emotion, if it is sincere, is involuntary." - Mark Twain, and i think its so very true. i miss him though. i can't wait to just talk to him...tomorrow will be fun. beach party! last night was great though....she's such an amazing friend and i'm so glad we can just talk about everything with each other. life isn't so bad i suppose...confusing, yes, but not that bad. wow...its amazing how much one or two people can affect your life. |
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dear cb diary,
i'm in here way too often, but whatever. i just have that much to say sometimes. well, just had an interesting discussion with him about his parents and well...the past situation. we were both at fault, but i still kinda feel mostly at fault...i mean, look at the relationship status i was in during that point in time. if you look at the entire situation from a few different points of view without any bias...i'm still the 'bad' person in this whole ridiculous thing. to all those people at school, to his parents, to him...ugh. its stupid. i know i made some mistakes, we all do, but right now its just...overwhelming a bit. i'm trying so hard to focus on what's been making me so happy in the last few days, but it still ties in with everything that has been driving me mad...i just feel so lost still...not as lost as previously, but still lost. i just wish there was a way to prove it to everyone that i'm not so horrible and that things didn't quite happen like they appeared...they really didn't. its just...i don't really care about the other people that much...they don't matter to me. i just care about the parents...it just really bothers me what they think of me and so on, because its not true and i guess i'm just not used to parents disliking me...as awful as that sounds, its true. and its just...of all parents, his. 'cause their disapproval probably won't help us any...ugh. this sucks. this sucks butt, really. i won't hurt him...really. i'll try my best. then there's the other party involved...ugh. i don't even know what to think about him anymore. he's changed in the last week and become rather...desperate sounding so i don't know. mind you, he's gone at the moment but i'm not sure what to do once he comes back. that should be interesting, mind you it will all really depend on his mindset by now. who knows...maybe he'll be more...sane now. i don't know. life is so great, yet at the same time so very horrible. dammit all. |
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