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[*stephinika*]

originally started by faithin_felix.

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i think this is self-explanitory, no? but don't post in here just quoting and commenting another's post, you must post your own 'entry' as well.


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dear cb diary,

last night was fun. i was so glad i had her to talk to and i know that i can trust her. i actually told her my little 'secret' and it was such a relief. i didn't tell her the whole secret obviously but still...it felt so good to just get that out, y'know? and she didn't treat me like a bad person about it which was great. its true though...one can't control how one feels. feelings just happen. its like that quote... "Any emotion, if it is sincere, is involuntary." - Mark Twain, and i think its so very true.
i miss him though. i can't wait to just talk to him...tomorrow will be fun. beach party! last night was great though....she's such an amazing friend and i'm so glad we can just talk about everything with each other.
life isn't so bad i suppose...confusing, yes, but not that bad. wow...its amazing how much one or two people can affect your life.

[*lolita kitty*]

ok. wow. i feel just, er- wow. i lied in about 90% of what i said in my last entry [not the last one, the one before that. and not 90% of it, but 90% of what i said about patricia and jaylyn]. then didnt delete me from everything, just banned me from their guild. they dont think im going to become a slut. well- er- they said thats 1/3 options. the other two were be hurt in a relationship and get a beatdown or something.

but the thing is, i lied and now i feel like poo. no, worse than poo. dirt. but now it feels weird. if she was reading that one, what other cb posts was she reading? i feel like i cant do anything without her or jaylyn popping up out of nowhere. i was on yahoo and then jaylyn im'd me saying i was banned from the guild. kristeen im'd me the day before that [ i think ... ?] and asked me what was wrong. people keep e-mailing me i just........ i just want to be left alone. but no. they think that im running away from my problems, and that if i try to be left alone nothing will get solved. which is why they try every way to help me. which is sad, because its not help. most of it it capitol letters cussing me out telling me how pathetic i am. then in the end they calm down and say "were just trying to help"

psh, puh-leez. all i want from anyone is to be f**king left alone. when i read that pm on gaia saying that she found out, i was like "holy fcuking shit". its like doing something horrible and your parents finding out. that feeling that......... you just feel so bad. and patricia, if your reading this........................... stop.

k im done. 9 days till i see dad again. i wish it was shorter.
life is pissing me off.