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*stephinika*
post Jul 3 2005, 06:55 PM
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originally started by faithin_felix.

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i think this is self-explanitory, no? but don't post in here just quoting and commenting another's post, you must post your own 'entry' as well.


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dear cb diary,

last night was fun. i was so glad i had her to talk to and i know that i can trust her. i actually told her my little 'secret' and it was such a relief. i didn't tell her the whole secret obviously but still...it felt so good to just get that out, y'know? and she didn't treat me like a bad person about it which was great. its true though...one can't control how one feels. feelings just happen. its like that quote... "Any emotion, if it is sincere, is involuntary." - Mark Twain, and i think its so very true.
i miss him though. i can't wait to just talk to him...tomorrow will be fun. beach party! last night was great though....she's such an amazing friend and i'm so glad we can just talk about everything with each other.
life isn't so bad i suppose...confusing, yes, but not that bad. wow...its amazing how much one or two people can affect your life.
 
 
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*lolita kitty*
post Jul 6 2005, 08:20 PM
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oh f**k no. i wrote like 5 paragraphs about how pissed off i am and then my damn computer turned off...
ERGH. PIECE OF SHIT. now no one will get to see... well... er... nevermind. i just feel like crap. no one will be nice to me. i dont get to see my dad for 10 more days. brandi thinks im stupid because im jealous of her and emmily. i mean what he hell am i supposed to do when my bff gets another bff. she has pics of them two all over her myspce and keeps talking about how cool they are and such. her and i were best friends!!!!!!!!

patricia and jaylyn hate me. they think im a psyco, and when i run away, they hate me even more. they said if i keep going the way i am, im going to end up a a slut. wow, how would you like one of your closest friends to say you were going to end up a slut????? i felt like shit and ditched them. they said if i was going to be that way then i didnt have to see them again. thy blocked me from every buddy list they had and the last thing they said was they were f**king glad i wasnt going to their school next year. the school im going to has brandi and emily, and a few friends from 6th grade i barely remember.

my only life is internet now. the only people i can talk to is my dad or my so-called internet friends. thats not very helpful. people keep making fun of me and calling me stupid and stuff and saying how ugly i am. im not ugly. im not!!!!! i just try to tell myself itheir no-good internet people i.... but.... i always end up crying. im such a goddamned crybaby!!!!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!! I f**king hate it.

my mom wont listen to me, she just ignores me and talks tro her friends onlien all day. sad thing is i do too. whenever i tell her something she just starts crying or yells at me. i have to deal with 10 more days of my mom yelling, screaming, throwing my shit around, and cussing at me for shiut my f**king sister did. not fun.

i just want to go home to dad and see brandi, tell her what a bitch life is, and have her sympathy. but that cant happen. i can tell dad. but.... hes ust different. hes not my friend. hes my father. he'll listen and hug me, but then when school comes, i have a whole new problem to deal with. im just going to try to make new friends and pretend nothing is wrong.

ill tell myself, im not slow, im not stupid, im not an ugly idiot, im not a worthless freak whose going to end up a slut. [oh yeah, patricia said that one], and i am a pretty smart nice girl. i wish.

this is getting too weird, im going to go and um, do stuff......... whatever......

kill me now.
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stephinika   createblog diary   Jul 3 2005, 06:55 PM
helllla jankyyyy   YAY new diary! go steph <3. =) Dear Crea...   Jul 3 2005, 08:31 PM
dreamerOi   Dear CBdiary, lately Travis has been visiting mor...   Jul 3 2005, 09:27 PM
mocassinsx29   Dear CB diary, Yesterday was cool. In the morning...   Jul 3 2005, 09:59 PM
xldubaliciousx   Dear cB diary: I feel really plain right now. My ...   Jul 4 2005, 12:03 AM
CrackedRearView   Dear cB Diary, I'm loving her more every seco...   Jul 4 2005, 05:29 AM
Azarel   Dear createBlog diary, He is absolutely wonderful...   Jul 4 2005, 07:44 AM
Weird addiction   Dear cB diary, I told him that i was going to sta...   Jul 4 2005, 08:07 AM
Teesa   Dear Createblog Diary, Moving is so overwhelming, ...   Jul 4 2005, 01:49 PM
helllla jankyyyy   Dear cB Diary, I'm pissed off. Createblog is g...   Jul 4 2005, 05:20 PM
fallen_angel1137   Dear Cb Diary, I'm so glad he is mine.   Jul 4 2005, 05:34 PM
sharerol   Dear createBlog Diary, It's July 4th. Yay. ...   Jul 4 2005, 07:16 PM
xldubaliciousx   to cB diary: Hehehheh today is the forth of July....   Jul 5 2005, 12:53 AM
--{Empty}--   dear cb diary, wow. i'm on my friends account...   Jul 5 2005, 01:21 AM
lolita kitty   dear cb diary, my mom is pissing me off, AGAIN. t...   Jul 5 2005, 01:43 AM
Azarel   Dear createBlog diary, There are so many material ...   Jul 5 2005, 02:16 AM
MyVermilionPlague   Hey. Today was okay. Partied with Zena and then w...   Jul 5 2005, 02:26 AM
Azarel   QUOTE(Despise @ Jul 5 2005, 12:26 AM)Anyway.....   Jul 5 2005, 06:46 PM
MyVermilionPlague   QUOTE(Azarel @ Jul 5 2005, 6:46 PM)I think I ...   Jul 5 2005, 07:30 PM
BrokenDream   wow, new diary! thanks Steph. hehe, you rock. ...   Jul 5 2005, 04:41 AM
helllla jankyyyy   Dear Createblog Diary, Okay it's 9:13am in the...   Jul 5 2005, 11:21 AM
EmmalieV   Dear CB Diary; Why does he have a need to lie to ...   Jul 5 2005, 06:41 PM
wind&fire   dear cB diary im going to camp in a ew hours... i...   Jul 5 2005, 07:21 PM
one_and_only   dear createblog diary: today was really boring. ...   Jul 5 2005, 07:45 PM
yummy_delight   Dear cB diary: I'm jealous. REALLY REALLY JEA...   Jul 5 2005, 07:49 PM
lolita kitty   dear cb diary, people are so rude. i mean, i dont...   Jul 5 2005, 07:56 PM
jennypie   i remind myself of Lena from Sisterhood Of The Tra...   Jul 5 2005, 07:58 PM
jooleeah   Dear Createblog Diary, I want everything to stop. ...   Jul 5 2005, 08:04 PM
helllla jankyyyy   Dear Createblog Diary, You know, I don't even...   Jul 5 2005, 08:12 PM
stephinika   dear cb diary, wow. i'm feeling okay today......   Jul 5 2005, 09:00 PM
MyVermilionPlague   QUOTE(stephinika @ Jul 5 2005, 9:00 PM)oh and...   Jul 6 2005, 04:08 PM
sharerol   Dear createBlog Diary, Hm, I've basically bee...   Jul 5 2005, 11:30 PM
xldubaliciousx   Dear cB Diary: Today I went shopping. Yeah.. I go...   Jul 6 2005, 12:23 AM
Teesa   Dear CB Diary- Don't I deserve someone? Can...   Jul 6 2005, 01:25 AM
[Scr3amin][Horror]   Dear cB Diary, Summer here, but it pouring rainin...   Jul 6 2005, 02:30 PM
lolita kitty   hey there- its me again. ok... you have nofcuking...   Jul 6 2005, 02:52 PM
`SWTWiNKLE3YES   Dear cB Diary, I`m bored to death .. i`m ...   Jul 6 2005, 04:22 PM
jooleeah   Dear Createblog Diary, I look at all these topics ...   Jul 6 2005, 04:26 PM
tweeak   Dear cb diary, I know this is pretty, immatrue, a...   Jul 6 2005, 07:05 PM
anqie   Dear CB Diary, I'm leaving to Europe soon :) ...   Jul 6 2005, 07:21 PM
Azarel   Dear createBlog diary, I need to find something be...   Jul 6 2005, 07:23 PM
stephinika   brie - aww, not a problem. dear cb diary, ugh....   Jul 6 2005, 07:32 PM
insomniac   dear createblog diary, i'm really bored, and ...   Jul 6 2005, 07:46 PM
lolita kitty   oh f**k no. i wrote like 5 paragraphs about how pi...   Jul 6 2005, 08:20 PM
tweeak   i think this s really becoming an obsesson. i don...   Jul 6 2005, 08:25 PM
helllla jankyyyy   Dear Createblog Diary, Wow today I made myself th...   Jul 6 2005, 09:52 PM
ichiban   dear cb, i hate myself right now. it feels like i...   Jul 6 2005, 10:38 PM
lolita kitty   dear cb diary, ive written too much. this thing i...   Jul 6 2005, 11:05 PM
xldubaliciousx   Dear cB Diary: Today was so freaking awkward. Ack...   Jul 7 2005, 01:36 AM
osidepinay33   Dear Cb diary.. well there's this guy that...   Jul 7 2005, 03:23 AM
lolita kitty   ok. wow. i feel just, er- wow. i lied in about 90%...   Jul 7 2005, 06:19 AM
tcunningham1589   cB Diary, I recently got a boyfriend, and a job. ...   Jul 7 2005, 06:23 AM
jooleeah   Dear Createblog Diary: My dad is a f**king bastard...   Jul 7 2005, 12:30 PM
Azarel   Dear createBlog diary, It's unexplicable, thi...   Jul 7 2005, 02:58 PM
helllla jankyyyy   Dear Createblog Diary, Oh hmm. Well today I hung o...   Jul 7 2005, 08:52 PM
Hiphop d[-_-]b   Createblog Diary, i just addmited im in LOVE with...   Jul 8 2005, 10:21 AM
miss barnes   dear cb diary been in bama since the 2st. i'm...   Jul 8 2005, 10:27 AM
lolita kitty   dear cb diary, i wish i could get out more. i wis...   Jul 8 2005, 06:32 PM
Lo Mein   Dear cB Diary, I love cB even though its only my s...   Jul 8 2005, 09:12 PM
helllla jankyyyy   Dear Createblog Diary. Ohh boyy. Today was fun ac...   Jul 8 2005, 11:39 PM
toodlepops.   Dear cB diary, I don't understand it. Why ca...   Jul 9 2005, 01:54 AM
Teesa   Dear Createblog Diary-- Today was just the most aw...   Jul 9 2005, 02:17 AM
xldubaliciousx   Dear cB Diary: Today was all right. Wasn't to...   Jul 9 2005, 02:52 AM
Frankie   Dear Createblog Diary, somtimes life sucks. my li...   Jul 9 2005, 12:19 PM
Hiphop d[-_-]b   Dear cB diary, if i knew they would heckle me abo...   Jul 9 2005, 12:28 PM
helllla jankyyyy   Dear cB Diary, I thought I knew how I felt. I th...   Jul 9 2005, 07:38 PM
Hiphop d[-_-]b   dear cB diary, god, they forgot about me so quick...   Jul 9 2005, 08:19 PM
[Scr3amin][Horror]   dear cB diary, Whoo long day, parent gone 2 weddi...   Jul 9 2005, 08:22 PM
sharerol   Dear createBlog Diary, Today has been boring. Ve...   Jul 9 2005, 08:58 PM
lolita kitty   dear cb diary, well, its all over. i got my last ...   Jul 9 2005, 09:22 PM
xldubaliciousx   Dear cB Diary: I feel lonely right now. No one is...   Jul 10 2005, 01:27 AM
Unpredictable   Dear CB Diary, i find myself waiting online for h...   Jul 10 2005, 01:46 AM
takeapolaroid__x   Dear cB diary, EMI'S LEAVING!!! N...   Jul 10 2005, 02:02 AM
`SWTWiNKLE3YES   dear cB diary, im bored but not sleepy =| tomorrow...   Jul 10 2005, 02:19 AM
MyVermilionPlague   Hey. Whew, I'm exhausted. I haven't slept...   Jul 10 2005, 03:53 AM
Hiphop d[-_-]b   dear cB diary i feel all lonley. i think i need t...   Jul 10 2005, 02:47 PM
Unpredictable   Dear CB Diary, im so bored..Just got back from Ta...   Jul 10 2005, 06:24 PM
sharerol   Dear createBlog Diary, Okay, today has been prett...   Jul 10 2005, 06:31 PM
helllla jankyyyy   Dear cB Diary, I need to get away. I just want to...   Jul 10 2005, 07:08 PM
WinterNights2   Dear CB, Today me and roxy scared my cousin to h...   Jul 10 2005, 08:57 PM
wind&fire   dear cB I WISH I STOPPED PROCRASTINATING!...   Jul 10 2005, 09:12 PM
stephinika   dear cb diary, still rather happy about yesterday...   Jul 10 2005, 10:27 PM
Unpredictable   Dear CB Diary.. My dad is seriously pissing me of...   Jul 11 2005, 02:44 AM
lolita kitty   dear cb diary, well, i think for these last few d...   Jul 11 2005, 04:45 AM
stephinika   dear cb diary, i'm in here way too often, but...   Jul 11 2005, 03:45 PM
jooleeah   Dear Createblog Diary, I'm getting away in 6 d...   Jul 11 2005, 05:58 PM
funky_munky   Dear cB diary, I dunno whats wrong with me. This...   Jul 11 2005, 06:40 PM
Hiphop d[-_-]b   dear cB diary, why do i feel so ashamed when shes...   Jul 11 2005, 06:52 PM
Azn_Angel13   dear cB diary... omg i am so happy today! i m ...   Jul 11 2005, 06:54 PM
yellowgurl   Dear cB diary, Im so sleepless. I still cry alot...   Jul 11 2005, 06:55 PM
helllla jankyyyy   Dear cB Diary, Ah. Okayy well I slept over at my ...   Jul 11 2005, 09:18 PM
sharerol   Dear createBlog Diary, My day was fine. Then you...   Jul 11 2005, 10:31 PM
electric shock   Dear cB diary, [8:36PM] My internet just went do...   Jul 11 2005, 10:40 PM
Teesa   Dear Createblog diary, Today was a pretty good day...   Jul 12 2005, 01:26 AM
Azarel   Dear createBlog diary, I heard AP scores came in....   Jul 12 2005, 02:24 AM
MyVermilionPlague   Hey.. I dropped the summer algebra retake. I dug ...   Jul 12 2005, 10:27 AM
miss barnes   Dear CB Diary, is it possible to love someone tha...   Jul 12 2005, 11:57 AM
jooleeah   To Brie: I'm sorry. It's good that you...   Jul 12 2005, 03:51 PM
Teesa   Dear Createblog Diary-- Why am I not receiving m...   Jul 12 2005, 03:52 PM
SillyCourtney   Dear Createblog Diary- My brother is getting on m...   Jul 12 2005, 04:22 PM
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