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*stephinika* |
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originally started by faithin_felix.
version1 version2 version3 version4 i think this is self-explanitory, no? but don't post in here just quoting and commenting another's post, you must post your own 'entry' as well. -------------- dear cb diary, last night was fun. i was so glad i had her to talk to and i know that i can trust her. i actually told her my little 'secret' and it was such a relief. i didn't tell her the whole secret obviously but still...it felt so good to just get that out, y'know? and she didn't treat me like a bad person about it which was great. its true though...one can't control how one feels. feelings just happen. its like that quote... "Any emotion, if it is sincere, is involuntary." - Mark Twain, and i think its so very true. i miss him though. i can't wait to just talk to him...tomorrow will be fun. beach party! last night was great though....she's such an amazing friend and i'm so glad we can just talk about everything with each other. life isn't so bad i suppose...confusing, yes, but not that bad. wow...its amazing how much one or two people can affect your life. |
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*lolita kitty* |
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oh f**k no. i wrote like 5 paragraphs about how pissed off i am and then my damn computer turned off...
ERGH. PIECE OF SHIT. now no one will get to see... well... er... nevermind. i just feel like crap. no one will be nice to me. i dont get to see my dad for 10 more days. brandi thinks im stupid because im jealous of her and emmily. i mean what he hell am i supposed to do when my bff gets another bff. she has pics of them two all over her myspce and keeps talking about how cool they are and such. her and i were best friends!!!!!!!! patricia and jaylyn hate me. they think im a psyco, and when i run away, they hate me even more. they said if i keep going the way i am, im going to end up a a slut. wow, how would you like one of your closest friends to say you were going to end up a slut????? i felt like shit and ditched them. they said if i was going to be that way then i didnt have to see them again. thy blocked me from every buddy list they had and the last thing they said was they were f**king glad i wasnt going to their school next year. the school im going to has brandi and emily, and a few friends from 6th grade i barely remember. my only life is internet now. the only people i can talk to is my dad or my so-called internet friends. thats not very helpful. people keep making fun of me and calling me stupid and stuff and saying how ugly i am. im not ugly. im not!!!!! i just try to tell myself itheir no-good internet people i.... but.... i always end up crying. im such a goddamned crybaby!!!!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!! I f**king hate it. my mom wont listen to me, she just ignores me and talks tro her friends onlien all day. sad thing is i do too. whenever i tell her something she just starts crying or yells at me. i have to deal with 10 more days of my mom yelling, screaming, throwing my shit around, and cussing at me for shiut my f**king sister did. not fun. i just want to go home to dad and see brandi, tell her what a bitch life is, and have her sympathy. but that cant happen. i can tell dad. but.... hes ust different. hes not my friend. hes my father. he'll listen and hug me, but then when school comes, i have a whole new problem to deal with. im just going to try to make new friends and pretend nothing is wrong. ill tell myself, im not slow, im not stupid, im not an ugly idiot, im not a worthless freak whose going to end up a slut. [oh yeah, patricia said that one], and i am a pretty smart nice girl. i wish. this is getting too weird, im going to go and um, do stuff......... whatever...... kill me now. - cassie ![]() |
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