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i think this is self-explanitory, no? but don't post in here just quoting and commenting another's post, you must post your own 'entry' as well.


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dear cb diary,

last night was fun. i was so glad i had her to talk to and i know that i can trust her. i actually told her my little 'secret' and it was such a relief. i didn't tell her the whole secret obviously but still...it felt so good to just get that out, y'know? and she didn't treat me like a bad person about it which was great. its true though...one can't control how one feels. feelings just happen. its like that quote... "Any emotion, if it is sincere, is involuntary." - Mark Twain, and i think its so very true.
i miss him though. i can't wait to just talk to him...tomorrow will be fun. beach party! last night was great though....she's such an amazing friend and i'm so glad we can just talk about everything with each other.
life isn't so bad i suppose...confusing, yes, but not that bad. wow...its amazing how much one or two people can affect your life.

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

wow. i'm feeling okay today...finally have my godamn account back, so i'm happy about that.
oh and kudos to brie and anna for making up and just being nice...i like seeing people be nice to each other. and brie, i agree with anna (if you see this)...i think i know what you're talking about and i'm rooting for you too.
hm...still freaked out from yesterday but i'm doing better...its funny how a simple chat on the phone can cheer one up so easily, but yeah parents suck. bleh. other than that...i guess life is the same. great yet horrible all at once.
i've just decided though, people and gossip are evil. thats all. bye now.

[inthemudhole]

oh and kudos to brie and anna for making up and just being nice...i like seeing people be nice to each other. and brie, i agree with anna (if you see this)...i think i know what you're talking about and i'm rooting for you too.

Thanks a lot, Steph. I appreciate that a lot, and I'm happy about Anna and I making up too.

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Dear createBlog diary,

A few of my friends are really annoying me right now. They invited me into a chat on AIM, and they are just SO giddy. It's really getting on my nerves. I just went through an emotional breakdown about twenty minutes ago, but they're too caught up with their ideas of a party to even care. The thing is... I don't even know what I want from them right now. I want them to care, but I don't want to talk about it.

Maybe I should just stop complaining.

This summer school course isn't getting me anywhere. I'm repeating the second semester of Algebra I, but this teacher's method is horrible. I shouldn't have slacked off during eighth grade, because my teacher's method was very good. I just took advantage of the whole year, and it hit me hard. I don't know what's going on in this math class and we don't even f**king go over it. He gives us a damn test everyday and that's all we work on. I'd rather have five worksheets or assignments a night to do at home, because then I'd at least get something out of it. I don't learn anything during this class. I'm probably failing for all I know.

My parents want to go out of town for the weekend. I don't know about that... I can't stand going anywhere with them. Oh well. It could be fun. I could maybe go to a semi-local concert then if we go to Bismarck, North Dakota. That would be GREAT. It's an all day concert... from about noon to midnight with a lot of local to semi-local metal bands. I really hope I can go. If not, then I'll just separately catch the bands when they come into Fargo.

I really miss Jessica... It's been about three years since she died, but I'm really starting to miss her.... a lot. I saw one of our mutual friends yesterday and we looked at each other with this sort of understanding or something. It was really different, but not necessarily bad. I'm just glad she didn't suffer, but I really miss her now... She would've been a senior this year. She was one of the most caring people ever.... I guess I should stop dwelling on it though, just the thing is... it just hit me now. Yeah, it hit me pretty hard at her funeral, but now it's just hitting me like a ton of bricks.

I feel like such an idiot when I cry. I don't do it very often, so I think that's why I feel so stupid when I do it. Last night was the fourth night in a row that I've basically cried myself to sleep. It's just the memories. I realize I'm only thirteen (well, almost fourteen now), but I have a lot of bad memories. Oh, and some good ones too, but those make me just as sad, just as ready to cry over, because they're so good and I miss those things.

I guess I should stop dwelling on such things. The thing is, I tell myself that... but I never follow through with it. I just dwell on things until I can't stand it anymore.

Anyway, onto something else...
Apparently I was wrong or something, but the Offspring DVD doesn't come out until the eighteenth or something. I thought it came out yesterday, but when I went to Best Buy and Media Play today, I didn't see it, so I asked them and they said it comes out then. Man, I felt stupid. ;x Oh well, I had about fifty bucks on me, so I bought the Stone Sour CD and DVD set. I love Stone Sour. It's great to see Corey Taylor in another band. Slipknot's great, do NOT get me wrong, but it's really great to see him in another band as well. (Big emphasis on as well.)
I can't wait until Slipknot's done with this tour! Then they can work on their side projects and such. I love all of their side projects almost as much as I love them, so this'll be great. Stone Sour gets a new album out next year.
Rammstein and Children of Bodom have new albums out in September of this year.
This is great.

This song's making me so sad.
I watched the DVD portion of The Offspring's greatest hits album, and Dexter (singer and guitarist) and Noodles (guitarist) spoke about the songs on there, and "Gone Away" is apparently about someone somewhat in denial about someone that died, and it's actually quite sad. I never realized that before. I never really read into their lyrics before, so yeah.

Anyway, enough for now.

See ya.

-Brie