im 12 and im facing this problem already, a break down hard to deal with |
im 12 and im facing this problem already, a break down hard to deal with |
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this is going to be long...hope you can read it
yes people i AM 12 and yes i have my whole life ahead of me. and i know i will have greater challenges in the future. so please dont tell me im still 12 i have my whole life ahead of me, etc. i know but im having a break down right NOW. ive been liking this guy ALOT since april.14.05. i know there would be no chance between us for specific reason only me and him know. so i didnt expect anything from him. well just a few day ago he hooked up with this girl, hes been talking about for MONTHS. i knew they were going to be together sooner or later so it was no surprise cause they do everything a couple do the only thing they were missing is acctally establish as a gf/bf. ever since they have gotten together its like...i cant face it. i cant face the fact they are together. i cant face reality anymore. i cant seem to concentrate in school. but the thing that worrys me is how i've been acting towards my friends. its breaking us apart. and im not talking about as in me and everyone im talking about everyone everyone as in all my friends not being together we're forming our own *groups* by our selves. our little group has practically been broken up. but besides that ive been finding the littlest things that bother me. its like i need to find it so i can be mad at them. i dont know who i am anymore. im getting pissed at my nicest friends and im totally being obnaxious to them and i just so rude these days. but i cant help it. in fact i feel like i achived a goal when i am obnaxious to them, yet i feel extremly bad. all this just go way back to me liking *him* and how i cant face the fact. so i turn to people i know and blame it all on them. i dont know whats wrong with me... has anyone gone through this? or am i alone on this... ![]() |
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well i don't think you have a reason to be mean to everyone, but then again jealously is an ugly thing. it's one of the 'deadly sins'
i think it'd be best if you talked to that boy... at least to someone just to get everything off your chest. and for your friends... organize a get together, like old times. you'll remember why you were all friends in the first place. have a pint of ice cream, and talk about your boy problems. that's what girl friends are for. ![]() and to get rid of your jealously (srry if this sounds lecture-ish) just be happy for him. if you like him that much, just let him be. everyone is free to love whoever they want. i'm going through the whole 'crush having a gf' thing too as well, so i know how you feel. i liked 'him' a lot... and still do. but like... if you see them laughing together, smile, because they're happy. that's all you can do. |
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