i miss her, she was my best friend Options

[iheartsimba]

I was 8 years old. I was at swim team practice sitting alone. This girl comes up to me asking if I wanted to be her swim partner. I said yes. We had a blast together. Like natural friends. That night she invited me to sleep over. We talked about everything. A few sleepovers later she started calling me her bestfriend. And I couldn't agree more. We were like the perfect pair of people.
We swore we'd be best friends forever. We loved eachother so much.
Well when I was 12, my friend got this disease. They thought it was cancer. They soon found out it was a tumor. She was seriously sick for a long time. I loved her so much, and we were having some hard times. She kept saying she tried commiting suicide before.
I was scared. I stuck with her through everyhting. Then a lot more things began happening, along with the disease her parents were tlaking about divorce, her sister beet her, her dad was having job problems, and they were probably gonna move....leaving me behind.
Well I stuck with her. THings started to get better. She got better, her parents are madly in love again, and they wern't moving.
Well I told her a lot of secrets about myself later....and they got out around the school. I got in this fight with her. I felt like I had done so much for her, but gotten nothing in return.
We fought for a while, and just ignored eachother for about the next year.
Well a few months ago we came back to eachother. We told eachother how much we missed it all. Now I am 13 and I miss her so much. But by now, I think she has moved on. She's become pretty popular and well....she's changed. She seems so much happier without me. And I miss her SO MUCH. I loved sleeping over. I used to hate sleeping on the floor at her freezing cold house...but you don't relize how much you loved it till its gone. I'm crying at the moment. She was my bestfriend in the whole world. She was part of me. We were eachother. When I lost her, it was like a part of me was missing. I think the part of her that I was has healed. She doesn't need me. But I need her so much.

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We have moved on
I've gone my way,
She's gone hers.
We are different people now.
But for me,
It's like a curse.
She has changed
While I remain the same
Leaving me crying
Exhailing deep breaths of tears
She has new firends
Mine are deserted
She has so much fun
With everyone
Leaving me, just hoping for life to be done.
She was part of me.
She was who I was,
That part of me is missing.
Where is the love,
We said we'd be best friends for ever.
I have the notes to prove it.
What happened to that?
Was it erased?
My heart was,
I have to many problems to face...
I miss her.
I loved her.
She was my only real firend.
We related to everyhting.
We said we'd be firends forever.
I guess not.

[iheartsimba]

oh god. I don't know what happened. I'm hoping she calls me.
I really want to talk to her.

But while I was crying to her, and she held me, and told me she wishes things could go back how they were before to.but she has just changed...I still felt like there was a little of her left. She was like my sister. When we were little, we always pretended we were twins....and everyone believed us.

But she seems happier without me...
And I feel like it should stay that way.
I love her so much, and I told her that tonight...
And I told her she seemed so much better off without me
.

I hope things get better.