i can't believe this..., my b/f is a dork! Options

[gothicdork]

ok basically my boyfriend is just giving me problems but i'm willin to put up with him and his crap.

here is the convo we had today.

D3C3PT10N: HAHA your a dork
gothicdork87: yeah but i love you anyway...
D3C3PT10N: lol
gothicdork87: and you wont say it back?...
D3C3PT10N: lub ya 2
gothicdork87: *hug.* its nice to hear you say it......
gothicdork87: i felt like i was losin you
D3C3PT10N: bah battery
gothicdork87: .....you know you sayin it back once in a while is nice... even if my nephew is there....with you
gothicdork87: that's why i've been crying....as immature as that is
gothicdork87: u can say somethin u know
gothicdork87: u know u pissed some people off yesterday
gothicdork87: because i've been crying over this...
gothicdork87: I have to call something with you.....
gothicdork87: ALEX!!
D3C3PT10N: have to call something with me?
gothicdork87: no shawn wants to speak with you
D3C3PT10N: and who did i piss off and like i care , they can be pissed at whoever they want
D3C3PT10N: im not scared of titty lol
gothicdork87: i'm trying to say that i'm goin to call an ultimatem.....alex
D3C3PT10N: call an ultimatem ? what
D3C3PT10N: what the hell are u talking about?
D3C3PT10N: just say it
gothicdork87: that i'm tired of us fightin with each other i'm tired of feelin like i have to fight for your attention
D3C3PT10N: then end it
gothicdork87: no i'm too stubborn and i want i to work alex
gothicdork87: it to*
gothicdork87: ending it would be like lying to myself alex....and like i was lying to you
D3C3PT10N: wouldnt be lieng
D3C3PT10N: lien
D3C3PT10N: lying
D3C3PT10N: w.e
D3C3PT10N: would be saving u from pain
gothicdork87: i'm willin to feel pain to love you alex....because you matter to me that much i dun know if you feel the same way about me alex but you have my heart
gothicdork87: youve had it since i first saw you
D3C3PT10N has signed out. (6/9/2005 6:59 PM)

this is the general convo we had today....and i cn put up yesterday's convo... if you guys want to read.

[gothicdork]

ok....I'll tell the whole story......about all of this. Basically....I've been having problems trying to spend time with him, because him and my nephew are so much alike with liking cars so much. And you know...it doesn't bother that much that he's into cars because it's something he was into before I got with him. It's his personal hobby so to speak. But sometime i feels as if i have to compete for his attention with my nephew and I approached him about this. Now while we both said and did some pretty immature things i apologized. I mean I would like him to tell me if he was feeling the same thing so I told him how I was feeling.


I'm thinking that maybe one or two things maybe bothering him right now since it's so close to father's day. A couple years ago before I met him his father commited suicide..because he was very depressed. And i think that may have something to do with alot of what he's doing right now. My nephew and him are spending abunch of time together when he comes down to visit with me and I think that maybe it wasn't selfish of me to atleast want abit of time alone where it is just us together.


I've talked to my mom, his best friend, and a guy that I know he looks up to. My mom and the guy he looks up to told me not to do anything rash and that maybe since he has just turned 21 there is a new range of emotions that he is trying to sort out. This i can understand completely. My mom said that maybe he is trying to deal with a range of emotions he may have never felt before. His best friend said that maybe.... I shold try to approach this topic with him again and tll him that i'm tired of all the fighting (which isn't very much..) because its not helping with my emotional health or physical. The guy said to just wait to talk to him where I can try to get him alone and talk to him abou this in person to better judge his emotions.