i cant stop crying..., i just want them to treat me EQUALLY Options

[enyceXaddiction]

[this is going to be really long just hope you people would read it all and help me out here cause im in serious need of help right now ]

this past week i cant stop crying in school. i just became so sensitve, and i start crying for the littlest things but most of the times i hold it in. i told 2 of my trustworthy friends, i feel much better but it still just doesnt help!!!

what i think is leading to my sensitivity if the way people in my class has been acting towards me. there just so mean!!! i use to be kind of a b*tch [hitting people for no exact reason, annoying people, cursing etc] but i was just joking around and they knew that cause they never said anything for the past 8-9 months and they all seem to like me. Besides ive been nicer now i dont hit them or anything i dont really even hang around them anymore i leave them at peace but they have been bugging me for no reason these days.

for example once when we were entering science i was just sitting there minding my own buisness taking out my notebook when these three guys that i talk to alot [there kind of the guys that joke around alot in class] were joking around next to my lab table. then all of the sudden when the bell rang they went to take their seats but they had to pass me so one pulls my hair and flicks my ear, another one starts cursing me out [you fu*king b*tch] and another one slaps my forehead. i almost started to cry but i held it in.

there was another time when we were all in health class and one of the guys got in trouble for sitting at the wrong seat he usually sits next to me and then he went back to his original seat [next to me] and he looked like he was about to cry [eyes&nose were red] so i asked him sweetly as i can be "are you crying...?" and he just goes "sh*t the f*ck up"

every time something like that happens i always think about one stuff...this girl in my class is extremly polite, nice, sweet yada yada yada [she doesnt curse or anything] and everytime the three guys joke aound they curse or talk about nasty stuff but when they find the girl standing near them and when shes making a disgusted face they get embarassed and apoligized to the girl and everything. i know they would never ever curse at the girl or even lay a hand on her. [shes one of my closest friends] i just feel so...well i cant exactly explain it i mean cant they just give me a little of respect like they do to the girl?

esspecally when another one of the guys gave me this entire speach how i should be more like the other girl like how shes so polite and everything. and he started telling me i dont deserve her as a friend and he started telling her that she should just dump me as a friend cause she doesnt deserve a friend like me cause im so rude and b*tchy. i got so bummed out about that i was mad or pissed of or anything like that just dissapointed and started to find it true.

i really cant help feeling like this but what can i do? all i can do now is cry and cry as i said before i talked to two of my friends and they were all just surprised and shocked i guess. when i told them about hiis i juss start bursting into tears while telling them adn everything. just thinking about it feels so uncomfortable...

[enyceXaddiction]

ehh people keep telling me to tell the teacher thats not me i dont like doing that. and i HAVE apoligized. i todl them what i did in the past everything im sorry. and i HAVE changed their just to stubborn to know what it means