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[gOODpIRATE]

well, i was blogging @ my myspace about somthing that happened to me today, then i realized that this would be a good discussion, so i directly cut-and-pasted it from my blog.

"i don't know what was with me today... i'm usually go about keeping my emotions bottled up, because i know that most people around me coulden't give a care how i felt. but i've just gotten to the point were i got so frustrated and mad where i just shut down.

head slams on desk, hands cluching the back of head, shaking, tears silently run down face.

has anyone really gotten to that point where they get so frustrated, and so overwhelmed that you just can't figure out what to do with yourself? you could go paceing around the room...but that woulden't work. you could grit your teath...but in reality, that wouldn't really work either because how hard are you going to grit before your teath crumble like chalk? so many thoughts go through your head, and you just can't wait for the period to end so everyone could leave the classroom [or wherever you are] so you can re-cooperate, and no one could see you at a time of your worst. do i stand alone on this, or have other people went through the same thing?"

what happend to me was that some people in my class were really starting to annoy me, and i just got to the point where i couldent take it. it wasn't like i was crying out loud like a baby, i just tried to keep my head down like i was trying to sleep.

just a thought.

[Heathasm]

wooo yeah ive had a breakdown before. Luckily i was alone and in my house so i could be as loud and dramatic as i wanted.

//edit
nvm, i just remembered another one where i was out to eat with my mom at a mexican food place and i was crying over my food because we were talking about how messed up our family is ~_~ i could see people lookign but trying not to look like they were looking. I dont think that was completely my fault though, i was going through PMS at the time