Either the best or the worst thing...., that's ever happend to me... Options

[CrazayChristian]

Ok this may take a while but I have to give a little story:

Me and Stephanie(call'er that) Have been friends for about 2 years. I was very shy back then, I had recently been through a delimma with some "friends". (that's another story for another time) Anyway, I "met" her on the internet from a friend. She went to my school that's all I knew about her. But later on I figured "what the heck, I'll just make a new friend. Time passes and eventually we become the best of friends. I helped her with stuff she helped me with stuff you get the Idea. These were happy times but then (bun bun bun) I began to like her as more than a friend. Naturally I told her this, and she seemed fine with it . I was suprised and we almost seemed to get closer . So I do what I did before and... I said nothing else. I made no move what so ever and my chance passed me by.
I eventually got over it, all I wanted was her friendship anyway.
Next problem: We began to grow apart, and by we I mean she began to grow away from me. Slowly we lost contact, and slowly I began to realize this. I know what your saying "der, just say something" Well...I had no problem with saying something...except she was very sensitive...VERY. She had been hurt alot in the past and she seemed quite happy now. So, being me I decided that's what mattered. (Total nice guy thing)
4-6 MONTHS LATER
Not much has changed, She still "ignored" me so to speak but I didn't say anything so she would be ok.
YESTERDAY
This is where my delimma comes in, I kept a blog with quite a few of these little things and...
Yes, she found it,
I was suprised when she got my call and when she said "Why didn't you tell me I had changed and ignored you?" My heart nearly sank and leaped out of my throat. She questioned me on why I hadn't said anything and I went through about 30 minute explaination on what has been going on with me (suicidal friend, friend on drugs, ect.) and finally told her that I didn't want to hurt her.
She told me there was no way I could hurt her, that I should have told her about this, that I should have known I could tell her anything. She says that what hurts her is knowing I wasn't honest with her.
about 40 or so minutes later I had told her basically everything, and she...once again seemed fine with it. But she would tell me about how people made her cry herself to sleep and I didn't want to be that way.

This is either the best thing that's happend to me because I finally have it off my chest.
Or the worst because I doubt she is just fine with this.

My question is,
1. I know I should have said something, but should I have lost hours of sleep and felt nervous all today because of how harsh I was.

2. Even though she says it's ok, does it sound like it would be?

edit: Blog

[WrathOfOnigo]

Good for you telling her. If you're not sure ask her if she really is fine with it because you don't want her to be hurt or anything like that. Try to become her best friend again while you're at it and be around for her if she needs you.