how do i .. break it ><, and go back to how it was b4 .. Options

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ive been thinking abt breaking up wif my bf .. but the thing is.. its not that easy. i mean nofings wrong. i jus wana break it. like i still like him. but i jus dont really want a relationship. like i preferred it b4 we went out. how we'd jus flirt aimlessly and talk for hours .. i still feel im not ready and that im not mature for this relationship. i mean like i feel really nervous and stuff wen ppl are around us. i can never imagine us like those couples u c in skool making out. then theres ppl in my class who always laugh, make comments at us wen ever they see us. i always end up blushing, hiding .. ><
i just duno wat to say. i mean i stil wana b good friends. i told my friend that .. but she sed most ppl end relationships like that but they rarely do get back 2 how they were b4 they went out.
any tips?
how about
"hey.. u no how we've been going out for a while.. i was thinking .. that we shood just be friends.."
that sounds so retarted

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^ .. >< i no i no.. but .. i dint know at the time. well 2 tell the truth, he never really asked me out. it was just one day we went out after an excursion .. then at the end of the week we were a couple. wierd i know.
but omfg. i am like so sad rite now. i feel like crying
i did it yesterday T__T i told him. i did wat u guys told me to. he was fine and really nice abt it. at the time i was so relaxed and happii..

but 2dai at skool .. was the worst. the word sum how spread and everyone was like "y u break up? ur so mean." and stuff.. i feel so terrible. u know wats worse? he got a friend to give me back a foto of me (he put in his wallet) that he 'stole" b4 we went out. i felt soo hurt .. i duno y. im such an idiot . i broke it. and now i feel so hurt wen it was me who broke it.

i miss him like hell >< i wana talk 2 him. every time i c him with other gurls.. it hurts. inside i mean. but after he gave me the foto.. i coodnt talk or look at him.

far out. theres this biatch in year 8 who is a family "friend' and 2dai on the train he went up 2 me and yelled "HE DUMPED U ALREADY!??!?!!" fark i nearly started bawling my eyes out. he had 2 yell so loud. but omg lucky these gurls from my year who i never talk to were there and told him off for being slack.

i duno. i feel like its my fault.

wahaaa.. i wana go back in time. T__T