My Life Is At It's Worst..*sigh* =(, My Life Is Devistating Options

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Well To Start Off Im A Month And A Few Weeks Pregnant,Im 17,High School Drop Out,Engaged,Live On My Own,Work 2 Jobs,And Depressed.

I Went From Riches To Rags, *sigh* Lived In Beverly Hills,CA With Parents And Wonderful Family Somewhat..Well More Like Disfunctional Family But Yeah Atleast I Wasn't Struggling With Money..*sigh* I Miss Him,I Miss My Lover! His Name Is Vee He Was My Boyfriend For 4Years And A Half And Suddenly After He Found Out He Got Me Pregnant He Left Me... Im Still Devistated From It I Loved Him Soo Much! And Now He Doesn't Even Want To Take Responsibility For His Own Child It's Really Sad For Me Because My Baby Is Going To Grow Up Without Knowing His REAL Father I Would Be Soo Wow If I Didn't Know My OWn Real Father...*sigh* I Still Miss Him And Love Him Soo Much! But What Can I Do? He's In Love And I Can't Take Him Away From His Lover..My Life Is Just Soo Screwed Up At This Point But Still I Keep Going For My Baby And My Adopted Son Which Is Also My Love And My Baby And For My Hubbie They Are The Only People In This Entire World Who Care/And Will Care Forever! If It Wasnt From Them And Zoloft&Prozac I Would've Been Dead By Now =( When My Ex Left Me Gosh,It Was Like My Whole Life Went Down The Drain,I Got Into Heroin,Shrooms,And All These Stuff To Get Rid Of The Depression And Stuff And I Felt Soo Self-Concious Started To Think I Was Ugly And I Just Hated Myself,Gosh Im Just Glad Things Got Slightly Better! After I Put My Life Into God's Hands! It Got Slightly Better!
Thats My Story..
-Jany P.