really hurt and confused, retarded crush Options

[leave.m0i.al0ne]

This is really long and confusing, and you guys will probably think I really am crazy for this guy (I really was) when you read this, but really need help.

Last spring in sixth grade, I had a really bit crush on a guy in my class. I didn't really know him that well, but I had a huge crush on his looks and how good he was on the soccer field. He found out, and a guy in my class claimed that he really hated me and the guy refused to sign my yearbook when I asked him to. I started asking myself what the hell was wrong with me, and was pretty confused all last summer.

This year in 7th, I saw him a lot over the summer, and he turned out to be in all my classes this year. He changed a lot, and I learned a lot more about him- like how he's really polite, is a straight- A jock, and is actually pretty friendly. I hung out with him a lot, and he was really nice to me, and treated me like everyone else- or so it seemed. I remember joking with him once, saying one of the cheerleaders were looking in his direction and he said "Oh her? I don't date girls like her." That really got me, I thought he really was a better person.

I got a camera for yearbook club and was taking pictures of everyone in class. By the end of the day, he says loudly, "she's been taking pictures of me all day. It's so annoying". Damn, that really hurt. I really didn't talk to him, look at him and just didn't want anything to do with him.

So now, I see him in the halls, flirting with another cheerleader that I sit next to in class. Every day I walk into that period, I always see them flirting. More than a few times, he's bumped into me and not even bother to say sorry, and ask for the cheerleader to wait. He's friends with one of my old guy friends, but every time I ask him for help, he always laughs at me.

Damnit I'm confused, someone help me!

[leave.m0i.al0ne]

I"ll try that... thx

but I only think he was nice to me to begin with, because he felt bad for me. I hate being pitied.

And guys always go for the cheerleaders and preps first in my school. They don't give a second glance at average girls like me.