createBlog Diary, version 4 Options

[*Azarel*]

Originally started by fathin_felix. Great idea.

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Old one was 22 pages. Diary? Self-explanitory? I think so. Don't post in here solely to comment on someone else's day.. you can quote them, but don't make that your post.

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Dear createBlog Diary,
I suppose it's been a long while since I've really written anything. I still can't find the inspiration I once had. Just, sometimes, I miss writing. Makes me feel empty, yanno? Time to ramble on some more.

Last night, I felt utterly tired, for no reason. I mean, I'm on freaking spring break, I shouldn't feel tired of anything, really. But I realized I was. I was sitting here on the computer, with nothing to do, nobody to talk to, nothing to relate to. I hated that feeling of utter.. boredom. I still don't know why. I guess I still haven't grown out of the phase where I can't see past the monotony of life. It's almost over though, high school, I mean. More than halfway.

And I can't believe break is more than half over already too. It used to be that the days would drag by, but already, it's Thursday, and I have yet to accomplish anything. Party tomorrow night at Jenn's, and I kind of want to go. At the same time though, I don't. I guess I'm worn out at the moment.

There's nobody to call late at night anymore. People are in school, they have work, whatever. I don't like keeping people up if they have things to do the next day-- it makes me feel bad. And I've been waking up so late nowadays. It makes me feel like a lazy pig. I dunno. I suppose it's just me. Is all, for now. Until next time.
-Me.

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,

Okay so my sister moved out of the house a week ago. I know, it's normal that siblings move out (she's 19) but it still doesn't stop me from being hurt. Me and her were so darn close. We've always been so close and I'm afraid that now that she left and has a boyfriend, she'll forget about me. Because really, she's working all day and when she isn't working she is either sleeping or hanging out with her boyfriend/friends. So how do I know she'll have time for me? This is the third time she moves out and the last two didn't work. The first time she was 15 and the second time she was 17 or 18 now she's 19. Rawr. She still has the chance to come back and I hope she wants to. However, even if she wanted to she's far too stubborn to come back to our home.

There is only one month of school left. YESSS!! I am so glad. I've never hated school so much. I don't know why I ahte it so much. I've change so much..I used to love school. I used to tell my parents to never make me miss school for ANYTHiNG but now I only wished I could miss school. I used to be a straight A student but now I'm not. I'm not getting F's or anything like that but I know I could do much better. Ughh and High School..I really don't want to go. I'm way to used to middle school and stuff and going to a HUGE new school with hundreds of people you don't even know is goign to be hard. My friend says its going to be easy for me beacsue I make friends really easily but I'm not sure that nessesarily true. I mean, this year I drifted away from sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo many people. Is that my fault? I used to be way more confident about meeting new people and socializing and getting to know people. But now, I feel like I can't. I just can't. I wonder what next year is going to be like. I know def. harder. But ahh...Gosh now that i think of it, I am losing touch with otns of people. How sad.

<333 Lorena