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| *Azarel* |
 Apr 21 2005, 06:04 PM
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Originally started by fathin_felix. Great idea.
Version2 Version3 Old one was 22 pages. Diary? Self-explanitory? I think so. Don't post in here solely to comment on someone else's day.. you can quote them, but don't make that your post. ----- Dear createBlog Diary, I suppose it's been a long while since I've really written anything. I still can't find the inspiration I once had. Just, sometimes, I miss writing. Makes me feel empty, yanno? Time to ramble on some more. Last night, I felt utterly tired, for no reason. I mean, I'm on freaking spring break, I shouldn't feel tired of anything, really. But I realized I was. I was sitting here on the computer, with nothing to do, nobody to talk to, nothing to relate to. I hated that feeling of utter.. boredom. I still don't know why. I guess I still haven't grown out of the phase where I can't see past the monotony of life. It's almost over though, high school, I mean. More than halfway. And I can't believe break is more than half over already too. It used to be that the days would drag by, but already, it's Thursday, and I have yet to accomplish anything. Party tomorrow night at Jenn's, and I kind of want to go. At the same time though, I don't. I guess I'm worn out at the moment. There's nobody to call late at night anymore. People are in school, they have work, whatever. I don't like keeping people up if they have things to do the next day-- it makes me feel bad. And I've been waking up so late nowadays. It makes me feel like a lazy pig. I dunno. I suppose it's just me. Is all, for now. Until next time. -Me. |
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Apr 27 2005, 01:19 PM
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Dear cB Diary,
Is it my fcuking fault that I feel so insecure around them. Like I can't trust them; although they are among the people I love? I don't understand. Tell me again why they just choose to make me feel this bad. I feel so lonely right now. Maybe I shouldn't do this at all. Maybe I shouldn't. You don't want to be with me, fine with me. I'm having doubts. Many doubts about our friendship. Tell me why the fcuk they act like that towards me. Is it because I'm blind? Becuase they know that I'm not fcuking good enough? I don't know. Just not anymore. I try so hard. Just so hard to keep up with them. That pratically, I'm losing them. I'm far behind. I really felt like I was like them. Guess I was wrong. Guess I was so fcuking wrong. -Insecurity. |
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Nothing can f*cking touch me.
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