createBlog Diary, version 4 Options

[*Azarel*]

Originally started by fathin_felix. Great idea.

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Old one was 22 pages. Diary? Self-explanitory? I think so. Don't post in here solely to comment on someone else's day.. you can quote them, but don't make that your post.

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Dear createBlog Diary,
I suppose it's been a long while since I've really written anything. I still can't find the inspiration I once had. Just, sometimes, I miss writing. Makes me feel empty, yanno? Time to ramble on some more.

Last night, I felt utterly tired, for no reason. I mean, I'm on freaking spring break, I shouldn't feel tired of anything, really. But I realized I was. I was sitting here on the computer, with nothing to do, nobody to talk to, nothing to relate to. I hated that feeling of utter.. boredom. I still don't know why. I guess I still haven't grown out of the phase where I can't see past the monotony of life. It's almost over though, high school, I mean. More than halfway.

And I can't believe break is more than half over already too. It used to be that the days would drag by, but already, it's Thursday, and I have yet to accomplish anything. Party tomorrow night at Jenn's, and I kind of want to go. At the same time though, I don't. I guess I'm worn out at the moment.

There's nobody to call late at night anymore. People are in school, they have work, whatever. I don't like keeping people up if they have things to do the next day-- it makes me feel bad. And I've been waking up so late nowadays. It makes me feel like a lazy pig. I dunno. I suppose it's just me. Is all, for now. Until next time.
-Me.

[ichiban]

dear cb diary,

on friday there was this motivational speaker dude that came to our school. it was kind of a really cool assembly. the guy, scott greenberg or whatever, was a cancer surviver. he said all this stuff about deciding how to handle your problems. are you gonna sit there and be affected by it, or do something about it? it was really sad when scott said that since he was a jew, people would make fun of him all the time when he was little. HEY JEW BOY! and then he told us that his grandmother's parents were taken by the nazis one day, and she never saw them again. and one month later, they came for her. really, really sad. this scott guy has really gone through too much in his life, it's unbelievable. it didn't motivate me at all though, because most things he said were pretty obvious. but yeah.

lol, i want to like someone. honestly, i do. yeah i know, youll feel free and whatnot without a guy, but it's so boring without one i can't believe josh likes me though. it's realy .. wrong. and kind of sick. i don't wanna be shallow or anything, but yeah.