createBlog Diary, version 4 Options

[*Azarel*]

Originally started by fathin_felix. Great idea.

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Old one was 22 pages. Diary? Self-explanitory? I think so. Don't post in here solely to comment on someone else's day.. you can quote them, but don't make that your post.

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Dear createBlog Diary,
I suppose it's been a long while since I've really written anything. I still can't find the inspiration I once had. Just, sometimes, I miss writing. Makes me feel empty, yanno? Time to ramble on some more.

Last night, I felt utterly tired, for no reason. I mean, I'm on freaking spring break, I shouldn't feel tired of anything, really. But I realized I was. I was sitting here on the computer, with nothing to do, nobody to talk to, nothing to relate to. I hated that feeling of utter.. boredom. I still don't know why. I guess I still haven't grown out of the phase where I can't see past the monotony of life. It's almost over though, high school, I mean. More than halfway.

And I can't believe break is more than half over already too. It used to be that the days would drag by, but already, it's Thursday, and I have yet to accomplish anything. Party tomorrow night at Jenn's, and I kind of want to go. At the same time though, I don't. I guess I'm worn out at the moment.

There's nobody to call late at night anymore. People are in school, they have work, whatever. I don't like keeping people up if they have things to do the next day-- it makes me feel bad. And I've been waking up so late nowadays. It makes me feel like a lazy pig. I dunno. I suppose it's just me. Is all, for now. Until next time.
-Me.

[kyuubi319]

Dear cB Diary,
I've been surprisingly happy despite what's going on around me. I'm in danger of failing Social Studies and things of that sort, but hell, I'm pretty damn happy. I think about him a lot. I really like him. He's the greatest and just thinking about his dorky smile makes me giggle. A certain friend of mine is a total hypocrite and I hate it. Woodrow Wilson is surely filled with a lot of assholes. But whatever. I feel happy and that's all that matters. Of course, I wish he hadn't gone to SC. It's only been 2 days. I still have to wait another 3 days until I can see him. I actually want to go back to school. I miss him..
I went to Trenton this afternoon. it was actually quite depressing. Trenton isn't exactly a lovely place. It's actually pretty run down. It made me sad to think that people are forced to live there. I saw two homeless people on my way there and i felt utterly sympathetic.
It makes me mad that some people do things just to get sympathey. But what makes me more mad is when it works. Why is it that now, I'm suddenly a bad person? I am a good person. Sure, I have my flaws, but i try to be good. She's spreading the sickest lies about me and it's upsetting. My own friends are questioning me. It's really unfair. I hate it. She dislikes me for no reason. I can't help it that I fell for him. I can't help it that he likes me. It's not as if she's still infatuated with him. But then why does she spread rumors like this and make up lies about me? Why does my personal life even concern her? We aren't even friends anymore. I only wanted to know why she hated me so much and all of a sudden she can only answer this by bringing up my past relationships? I lost a friend because of her because she makes me out to be an apparent ho. It's so unfair. My own friends questioning me. It honestly makes me want to cry. I guess I just have to deal with it, though.
As long as I have him, I'll be okay, though. He's the bestestestestestest.

sincerely,

sandy-dandy