createBlog Diary, version 4 Options

[*Azarel*]

Originally started by fathin_felix. Great idea.

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Old one was 22 pages. Diary? Self-explanitory? I think so. Don't post in here solely to comment on someone else's day.. you can quote them, but don't make that your post.

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Dear createBlog Diary,
I suppose it's been a long while since I've really written anything. I still can't find the inspiration I once had. Just, sometimes, I miss writing. Makes me feel empty, yanno? Time to ramble on some more.

Last night, I felt utterly tired, for no reason. I mean, I'm on freaking spring break, I shouldn't feel tired of anything, really. But I realized I was. I was sitting here on the computer, with nothing to do, nobody to talk to, nothing to relate to. I hated that feeling of utter.. boredom. I still don't know why. I guess I still haven't grown out of the phase where I can't see past the monotony of life. It's almost over though, high school, I mean. More than halfway.

And I can't believe break is more than half over already too. It used to be that the days would drag by, but already, it's Thursday, and I have yet to accomplish anything. Party tomorrow night at Jenn's, and I kind of want to go. At the same time though, I don't. I guess I'm worn out at the moment.

There's nobody to call late at night anymore. People are in school, they have work, whatever. I don't like keeping people up if they have things to do the next day-- it makes me feel bad. And I've been waking up so late nowadays. It makes me feel like a lazy pig. I dunno. I suppose it's just me. Is all, for now. Until next time.
-Me.

[to-devastate]

Dear cB diary,

I can't stand it anymore. I just can't. It's so freaking funny how he looks at her and when he looks at me, he doesn't take me serious. How he always seem to have her back on everything. While she has it all. And I have nothing. I seem so lonely with him. I just don't understand. I don't understand how we're not "supposedly" together. I mean. We have so many things in common. He's my perfect guy. I don't know why he doesn't see that. Just I don't know. I really would like him to know how much he's intentionally hurting me. And to see how it feels to be the last one standing.

Anywho. Today I got autograph books. I had about 22 or 23? people sign. Tomorrow I shall bring it back into school and have the rest sign.
And today, I was also informed that for graduation trip, we're going to the wax museum. I want to go to Six Flags like 74... but NO.. "it has to be educational". Screw the board of ed. They don't even know how much freaking work we do in school and we ask for.. just one day of fun.. but NOO. It's not freaking "educational". Last year, the grads got to go to Washington DC for overnight. Not fair. And it's not like the school is paying for our trip. Gosh. I was to smack them in the face.
Overall, today was a good day. I felt more connected with him but he just hurts me. Gah. I also got a 60 on spanish test. I hope mom doesn't yell at me too much.
- Me.