im so mad at my dad ..., how can i not hate him? Options

[ichiban]

When I was one, my mom got pregnant again. However, since she had to take care of me at the same time, she would often get really tired and that affected the pregnancy. So she needed a lot of rest so maybe there'll be nothing wrong with the new baby. And oh gee, exactly how helpful was my dad? he didn't even bother trying to take care of me so my mom can get some rest. my mom started having all these medical problems and she'd bleed a lot, so that probably meant there was something wrong with the pregnancy. and guess what? when my mom needed the most attention and help, my dad decides to just go to taiwan and i don't know, visits his mother who is just fine when MY mom is having all these problems. the baby eventually died inside of my mom two weeks later ...

and since then my mom somehow couldnt have another baby again.

if it weren't for my selfish, ignorant father, i could have a little sister or brother right now ...