My dad, I hate him, yet, I don't Options

[MeLoNiSyUmMy]

So, I was told that when I was little, my dad never held me like a "normal" father should. Sure, he gives me everything that I need : Food, a roof over my head and some shopping trips from time to time. But there's one thing missing; love. He's never EVER said the worlds, "I love you" or has even hugged me. He yells at me constantly and says things like, "I wish you were dead along with your mother." I KNOW he doesnt mean it..But still. It huirts. Also, I just joined track this year as a freshman and my uncles and aunts think I'll do a good job. But then there's my dad on the other side saying, "Oh no. She'll never place in any of her events." Or, "She's not good at running, trust me. I've seen her." WTF? He's NEVER come to any of my Pointe ballet recitals or dance competitions, nor has he even seen me run.
I don't want sympathy, I just want to know what I should say to him so I won't lose another parent.

[xiaobing]

So, I was told that when I was little, my dad never held me like a "normal" father should. Sure, he gives me everything that I need : Food, a roof over my head and some shopping trips from time to time. But there's one thing missing; love. He's never EVER said the worlds, "I love you" or has even hugged me. He yells at me constantly and says things like, "I wish you were dead along with your mother." I KNOW he doesnt mean it..But still. It huirts. Also, I just joined track this year as a freshman and my uncles and aunts think I'll do a good job. But then there's my dad on the other side saying, "Oh no. She'll never place in any of her events." Or, "She's not good at running, trust me. I've seen her." WTF? He's NEVER come to any of my Pointe ballet recitals or dance competitions, nor has he even seen me run.
I don't want sympathy, I just want to know what I should say to him so I won't lose another parent.

Hey u chines or AZN right cuz i checkd yr Xanga. Well if ure chinese or Azn or w/e dey usually say dat cuz dey dunno how to encourage their kids. They dink dat if dey say dat ure not good at it den u'll try harder but sum pppl just quit. I dont tho. Yeh dads usualy dont hold dere kids. N dey dont usually dont go up to their kids N say I LOve U so . Wen sumthn bad happnds 2 u lik if ure in a car crash or sumthn den the first ding thy'll do is come runnin to u N lik say how sry dey R. Well Lataz!!! Leave comment on ma Xanga aight MY XANGA