My dad, I hate him, yet, I don't Options

[MeLoNiSyUmMy]

So, I was told that when I was little, my dad never held me like a "normal" father should. Sure, he gives me everything that I need : Food, a roof over my head and some shopping trips from time to time. But there's one thing missing; love. He's never EVER said the worlds, "I love you" or has even hugged me. He yells at me constantly and says things like, "I wish you were dead along with your mother." I KNOW he doesnt mean it..But still. It huirts. Also, I just joined track this year as a freshman and my uncles and aunts think I'll do a good job. But then there's my dad on the other side saying, "Oh no. She'll never place in any of her events." Or, "She's not good at running, trust me. I've seen her." WTF? He's NEVER come to any of my Pointe ballet recitals or dance competitions, nor has he even seen me run.
I don't want sympathy, I just want to know what I should say to him so I won't lose another parent.

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[omG! im in the same situation as u and stuff. i know how u feel. he yells at me and my brother and makes it seem like we do everything wrong. He spazzes at me for not remembering to turn off the light when he always doesnt. He makes a big deal out of something really small and akes it looks like tis the end of the world. He says that the house is a huge mess when he just sits there, complaining. HE always says that he's tired and tells me to do all the house work when he just sat there wtaching tv for the whole day. I mean its not my fault his life is so crappy ad he has to take his anger out on me. Its not my fault that he takes drugs and has bad health. It's not my fault that he and my mom married , had sex and gave birth to me.

Sometimes i jsut wish that my dad wasnt my dad and i would have a much nicer dad...or maybe my mom would just take us away and have a new life. I am so pissed off at my dad i could kill him if i could grrrr