hm. old things are coming back up, i'm scared again Options

[perfectxflaw23]

I know it's going to seem a little out of place, being that I haven't really seen anyone on here who has the same problems as me, but whatever I can say something.

My life just seems weird again. I used to cut, was strong for 8 months.. and I broke again yesterday. I just feel so weak for giving in. I did it because I can't let the past go. Things have happened, my dad was abusive, and my virginity was taken away from me (not by him). I just can't let it all go. I was getting really upset over what my dad has emotionally been putting my brother through. My brother used to get 100s, but now that my dad is working out of town and barely talking to him, he gets 30s. I'm fine with him being gone, but I'm so worried about my family. I'm so scared that what my dad has done to us is irreversable.

Anyway, I just wanted to get a few things out. Any advice? You can also post about anything that's bothering you, too.

[cHuNsAbAbIe012]

i dont know if this is much help but wen there is no one else n nothing else i can turn to i usually turn to the one person who i know is always there. Jesus Christ. i dont know if ur Christian or not but even if ur Muslim or Jew or watever else...try turning to your God or superior being. i feel so at peace n loved whenever i turn to Him. even tho i know He should b the first person i turn to i always use Him as a last resort because im so selfish n i always try to do things the hard way. if u ever need someone to talk to u can go to my xanga it's mah_behb_andrew. maybe we can talk...