hm. old things are coming back up, i'm scared again Options

[perfectxflaw23]

I know it's going to seem a little out of place, being that I haven't really seen anyone on here who has the same problems as me, but whatever I can say something.

My life just seems weird again. I used to cut, was strong for 8 months.. and I broke again yesterday. I just feel so weak for giving in. I did it because I can't let the past go. Things have happened, my dad was abusive, and my virginity was taken away from me (not by him). I just can't let it all go. I was getting really upset over what my dad has emotionally been putting my brother through. My brother used to get 100s, but now that my dad is working out of town and barely talking to him, he gets 30s. I'm fine with him being gone, but I'm so worried about my family. I'm so scared that what my dad has done to us is irreversable.

Anyway, I just wanted to get a few things out. Any advice? You can also post about anything that's bothering you, too.

[Litt0_TeeZy]

I know it's going to seem a little out of place, being that I haven't really seen anyone on here who has the same problems as me, but whatever I can say something.

My life just seems weird again. I used to cut, was strong for 8 months.. and I broke again yesterday. I just feel so weak for giving in. I did it because I can't let the past go. Things have happened, my dad was abusive, and my virginity was taken away from me (not by him). I just can't let it all go. I was getting really upset over what my dad has emotionally been putting my brother through. My brother used to get 100s, but now that my dad is working out of town and barely talking to him, he gets 30s. I'm fine with him being gone, but I'm so worried about my family. I'm so scared that what my dad has done to us is irreversable.

Anyway, I just wanted to get a few things out. Any advice? You can also post about anything that's bothering you, too.

wow. i think i might know how you feel. my dad would always verbally abuse me and my siblings. the only one he didn't do anything to is my oldest sister. i guess she's his favorite, but i use to cut too and a few weeks ago i let in like you did. sometimes we have to realize life gives us minor set backs. so just ride over that bumpy road and maybe talk to a professional about this stuff. i know what you mean about the whole not letting the past go...i have a hard time doing that either. my dad is currently in iraq working with halliburton (sp?) but you know what? honestly...i miss part of him, but part of me is happy he's not here to verbally abuse me anymore. my heart is full of scars from that and it's hard explaining it to friends..i know it is. so i guess you have to find people with similar problems and you work them out together. for your brother...maybe YOU can try being there for him like your father was? sometimes a brother only needs his sister...i've learned that with my brothers. hope this helped..maybe a litt0?