hm. old things are coming back up, i'm scared again Options

[perfectxflaw23]

I know it's going to seem a little out of place, being that I haven't really seen anyone on here who has the same problems as me, but whatever I can say something.

My life just seems weird again. I used to cut, was strong for 8 months.. and I broke again yesterday. I just feel so weak for giving in. I did it because I can't let the past go. Things have happened, my dad was abusive, and my virginity was taken away from me (not by him). I just can't let it all go. I was getting really upset over what my dad has emotionally been putting my brother through. My brother used to get 100s, but now that my dad is working out of town and barely talking to him, he gets 30s. I'm fine with him being gone, but I'm so worried about my family. I'm so scared that what my dad has done to us is irreversable.

Anyway, I just wanted to get a few things out. Any advice? You can also post about anything that's bothering you, too.

[jordanriane]

Hey, hun, what you need to do, is find a hobby. Whenever you get the urge to run back to what you did in your past, start working up at your hobby.

Start designing websites, putting stencils on shirts (Stencilry, make a fansite for your favorite band (and keep it updated with the latest news/photos/mp3s/etc!), learn how to knit, or read books (make a list of books you want to read, and finish the list off!)

As far as your brother goes, he's young and very impressionable. Whenever your dad leaves, be there for him. Play videogames with him, or play his favorite activity (my little sister's always loved playing school for some reason), and help him with his work.. Just give him that little nudge of encouragement that he's loved, whether or not his father is home.

About your virginty being taken away, I'm not sure how to help you out with that, but if.. well, you're implying rape, I highly suggest reading Lucky by Alice Sebold. Maybe, what you could do, is start writing your own personal book about your problems, what you're going through, and just let your emotions flow through.

Hope some of that helped.