hm. old things are coming back up, i'm scared again Options

[perfectxflaw23]

I know it's going to seem a little out of place, being that I haven't really seen anyone on here who has the same problems as me, but whatever I can say something.

My life just seems weird again. I used to cut, was strong for 8 months.. and I broke again yesterday. I just feel so weak for giving in. I did it because I can't let the past go. Things have happened, my dad was abusive, and my virginity was taken away from me (not by him). I just can't let it all go. I was getting really upset over what my dad has emotionally been putting my brother through. My brother used to get 100s, but now that my dad is working out of town and barely talking to him, he gets 30s. I'm fine with him being gone, but I'm so worried about my family. I'm so scared that what my dad has done to us is irreversable.

Anyway, I just wanted to get a few things out. Any advice? You can also post about anything that's bothering you, too.

[topsyturvy]

I can't understand how people think cutting will solve their problems..

If you wanted to kill yourself, why not do it in one gunshot, instead of slowly waiting for your blood to run out? If suicide isn't the purpose behind cutting, what is the purpose of cutting??

I suggest you talk to your brother. Tell him how important his grades are to him. Tell him how he won't make it to college if he keeps this up.

If your dad was abusive, you should have reported him..

I hope things start looking up soon. I really can't stand it when I see someone's life falling apart and I'm totally helpless. T_T

[perfectxflaw23]

I can't understand how people think cutting will solve their problems..

If you wanted to kill yourself, why not do it in one gunshot, instead of slowly waiting for your blood to run out?  If suicide isn't the purpose behind cutting, what is the purpose of cutting??

I suggest you talk to your brother.  Tell him how important his grades are to him.  Tell him how he won't make it to college if he keeps this up.

If your dad was abusive, you should have reported him..

I hope things start looking up soon. I really can't stand it when I see someone's life falling apart and I'm totally helpless.  T_T

I'll clear some things up.
Cutting won't solve problems, I know that. It's an addiction. I knew it would never solve my problems, but it helped me cope with them. It's not something I'm doing for suicide. It just help me deal with my issues. I'm not one of those girls who just does it. I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I'll always have this issue, all I can do is try to manage it.

My brother is 8. It's not his fault he's doing bad. It's my father's. My brother spends his entire evening studying and writing. He has no learning disabilities. On the weeks my dad is home, my brother does amazing.

He was reported. When I was nine, he would hit my mother a lot. He was reported and could not even SEE my mother for a whole year. Or us (my brother and I). And then my mom let him back, because she lets people walk all over her. He was then reported Memorial Day either 2 or 3 years ago. For hitting me. My mom let him back, and all he got was probation.

I'm not so sure if there is any advice that can be given, now that I think about it. I guess I just needed to vent. Again, if you have any.. please.