hm. old things are coming back up, i'm scared again Options

[perfectxflaw23]

I know it's going to seem a little out of place, being that I haven't really seen anyone on here who has the same problems as me, but whatever I can say something.

My life just seems weird again. I used to cut, was strong for 8 months.. and I broke again yesterday. I just feel so weak for giving in. I did it because I can't let the past go. Things have happened, my dad was abusive, and my virginity was taken away from me (not by him). I just can't let it all go. I was getting really upset over what my dad has emotionally been putting my brother through. My brother used to get 100s, but now that my dad is working out of town and barely talking to him, he gets 30s. I'm fine with him being gone, but I'm so worried about my family. I'm so scared that what my dad has done to us is irreversable.

Anyway, I just wanted to get a few things out. Any advice? You can also post about anything that's bothering you, too.

[topsyturvy]

I can't understand how people think cutting will solve their problems..

If you wanted to kill yourself, why not do it in one gunshot, instead of slowly waiting for your blood to run out? If suicide isn't the purpose behind cutting, what is the purpose of cutting??

I suggest you talk to your brother. Tell him how important his grades are to him. Tell him how he won't make it to college if he keeps this up.

If your dad was abusive, you should have reported him..

I hope things start looking up soon. I really can't stand it when I see someone's life falling apart and I'm totally helpless. T_T